Yeah totally been a long while! I have been emotional and physically stressed to an extreme point where I take it out on inncocent people in my life. I have great regards on a person "befriending" me. I honestly don't know what to say about this person, kewl person yes, but them trying to befriend me is questionable to a state that is making me ( Read more... )

About 3 weeks ago I was eating Totino's Pizza Rolls, Pepperoni kind, and drinking Ice Tea.  While eating them, Something got lodge into my throat.  As I sat chocking, I tried to drink thinking maybe I swallowed wrong.  What was in my throat did not move.  So I reached my finger back into my throat.  Trying to see if i could feel whatever was there ( Read more... )

WOW...thats all i can say

Well it looks like every single time I get a Saturday off, I end up having to work. Tomorrow its going to be at the doctors office. I want to feel what a Saturday off feels like, because apparently I don't. I want that joy of getting to sleep in and have not a worry on what you have to do. Do I get that privillage FUCK NO. I am getting fucking ( Read more... )

Okay I seriously think I have hit the bottom of the barrel in this whirl wind of crazyness. I fell so hard for him, it is crazy.  One miniute I think I have all total control over all of this.  Telling myself I will never fall in love if its the last thing I do.  Then one faithful night it hit me, all I do is think about him.  Every moment spent ( Read more... )

In all honesty, 2 jobs are keeping me busy.  Like really really busy.  My schedule this week looks like this
Sunday- 10 a.m.-6 p.m.
Monday- 8:30 a.m.-5 p.m.
Tuesday- 8:30 a.m.-5 p.m.
               6 p.m.- 11 p.m.
Wensday- 8:30 a.m.-5 p.m.
Thursday- 8:30 a.m.-5 p.m.
                6 p.m.-10 p.m.
Friday- 8:30 a.m.-5 p.m.
            6 p.m.-11p.m.
Saturday- ( Read more... )

Well upon my way home, I got on to the highway, Chris *my manager* was behind me getting on the highway. Well. I needed to get over so I cut off a truck apparently the truck I cut off was following the one in front of me *in front a chic in a white truck, behind a guy in a green tuck*. Well the green truck comes flying up behind me so I slowed ( Read more... )

Okay, Luke is the most wonderful guy I have EVER meet. I'm so glad to have him in my life. He is so precious. He actually wants to keep me. I promised him something if we stay together for one year. I'm taking him to florida, all expenses paid, and taking him to a crystal clear beach. Where the water is crystal blue and the sand as white as ( Read more... )

AFTER EVERY THING YOU HAVE DONE....THE SHIT YOU PUT ME THROUGH....THE HURTFUL THINGS YOU SAID ABOUT ME,AND TO ME. NOT ALL ABUSE IS PHYSICAL ABUSE ( Read more... )

I must say first of all. I really think me and Luke make a wonderful couple. Honestly I am confused about what me and him really are. I question myself. For all the bad that has portrayed in my past. I have no idea what to actually see in my own heart. I am no longer able to see what he truelly wants, hides, or anything upon his eyes, because ( Read more... )