Agh. Feeling irritated and weird.

Feeling torn between my two jobs...

annoyed that things aren't progressing the way they should be.

There is so much newness is my life right now that I can barely comprehend it ( Read more... )

My body is stuck in fight flight fright mode.

There are so many changes on the horizon and I feel really scared for them... because I don't know if they will bring me what I want, but also because I'm worried that they will bring me what I want. I am holding so much tension in my body and I know this is unhealthy...

After seeing Greg today, I felt like I was going to bawl my eyes out ( Read more... )

I don't know why I feel so resentful toward this group of people; I think it has something to do with the fact that I've been working since I was four years old on this thing that I have loved and treasured for my entire life (music...). Then there's the rest of them, who have been doing it for a couple of years at best, and they're having more ( Read more... )

It's the new year and I actually haven't had a chance to think about this fact ( Read more... )

Had to call into work today because I am sick with stomach flu. Awful ( Read more... )

Are good things happening in the planets right now? It seems like everyone has been posting about happiness. Maybe it's just the fall-time settling in, the cooler weather, thoughts of the future and the productivity that winter always brings (via being inside, via time for indoor conversation and quiet). What - A - SUMMER ( Read more... )

So, I'm in Paris. I met a Parisian boy, and I hope I will get to kiss him tonight. The French laguage is unraveling from my tongue. I have small hopes that the future will suddenly seem real again. Let me just say-- Paris is expensive! But eating out alone feels great. I want to travel everywhere -- India, Africa, Italy, etc. I'll only make ( Read more... )

I read what I wrote back in March and it doesn't even sound like me. I feel like I am losing track of who I am, but not like that is anything static at all. They say you can't change who you fundamentally are, but is that true? Because I feel myself changing drastically, practically every second. I turned twenty-four and I feel thirty, maybe ( Read more... )