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Buried
Drowning. -
No words suffice...
I'm exactly where I belong.
02 Oct 2015
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Are you still out there? The real you?
Are you still looking for me?
I am completely, completely alone. I've always been. -
Please stay like this.
I expect things to catch fire all the time. I'd like to not. -
My fucked up head
I don't know anything.
How is it that I exist on this earth with no clear sense of where I stand or how things are? Everything open to interpretation, nothing really solid? How is it that I constantly contradict myself and mean it? Swing wildly between opposing perceptions?
I wish I knew how to cling to an ideology and not budge.
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Please
Please let things stay like this. Everything is good again. Trust, closeness and teamwork cranked up. Fears, resentments and egos cranked all the way down.
This is better than I've ever known and I want this to remain the normal.
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God dammit, I just can't shake you
He agreed to what I need. Everything. Unconditionally ( Read more... ) -
I've thought of every way...
It's just no use. We have to break this off.
I love him more than words can express but the power dynamic is so fucked in this situation that I'm unable to cope. I feel like I have no voice and it makes me lonely and miserable most of the time. We stopped being equals at some point, and as soon as we did, we stopped being cohorts.
I want a cohort. ( Read more... ) -
I wasn't lying
...when I said that the more you destabilize me...the more insecure you make me, the more you use my own heart as leverage, the more I mistrust. Mistrust leads to disgust. Disgust leads to revulsion ( Read more... )
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