for the first time, idk if what Im doing is right. on a very small and large scale. I think its probably normal, but its still scary as hell. fuck. and Im stuck over here wallowing in my own problems. fuck georgia, fuck virginia, fuck north carolina, and FUCK maryland. can I have a get out of jail free card please? Im just rambling now...

I knew it. everything is broken.

thank god I have natalie.

B.

the fresh paper crsiply slips from the printer tray and delicately slides in front of him.  the whiteness matches his blanched complexion.  "click, click", fresh lead protrudes from the tip of his pink pencil.  he knows this is exxagerated and unnecessary, but his irrational subconscious pushes him.  and he begins:

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well, here I am, in front of this computer, back again from an always too short break.  it was fucking awesome though, and you guys just made it legit.  I saw most if not all of you at least once, and I hope you had as much fun as I did.  Ill be back in about 2 months, and more fun will be had ( Read more... )

I guess this is just an update:

started playing water polo again
I havent written anything in months, except letters <3
my surprise party is no longer a surprise, but its still gonna be fucking legit
and...
Ill be home in 2 weeks.

yeah, hang in there people.

B.

40 days.

 yeee Im fucked.  its niiiiice.

B.

fuck my head
and have a good night.
Im making my escape.

believe nothing you hear,
and half of what you see.
but beleive everything you feel.

B.

it doesnt make any sense, you think itd get easier every time, but it just gets harder.  its bullshit.

but its worth it.  a sustaining force unmatched.

have fun in cali everyone, its cold as shit here.  see you in march.

B.

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