Comments | nbjones: sick of being sick.

nbjones

sick of being sick.

Oct 29, 2008 20:50

I've finally given into anti-depressants again. I got to the point where I couldn't take life that way anymore. Its always been a big problem, one I thought I could handle alone, but the anxiety attacks started coming daily and my out-of-control depression caused me to do some things that brought my mom to tears. Not only that, my actions and ( Read more... )

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mycolorfulheart October 30 2008, 04:25:44 UTC

I've struggled with depression too, off and on, since I was maybe 10? When I went on bc it helped make it manageable, but I'm switching bc pills so I'm kind of anxious it'll return.

I just want to send you well wishes/prayers because what you're going through sounds so hard. I'm glad you were able to ask for help, I hope your meds start working. Take care of yourself. <3

nbjones October 30 2008, 16:15:13 UTC

yeah it sucks...

bc really helped? hmm, most women would say the exact opposite it seems. do you mind if i ask you why you're switching? i hope that once you do the depression doesn't return...

thanks so much for your words of support! that makes me feel better. <3

mycolorfulheart October 30 2008, 18:50:47 UTC

Yeah I didn't go on the pill to stop the depression, but it was a side effect. I've gained a lot of weight on it though, that's why I'm switching. For me I think what I was feeling was linked to PMS, because for the week of my period and the week after I'd be okay; it was just those other two weeks. Hormones can make alot of stuff go whack so I'm crossing my fingers for the next couple months!

nbjones October 30 2008, 19:51:41 UTC

it seems to always be something with bc... weight gain/loss or hair shedding or making your hormones go nuts so you argue with everyone around you. hopefully whatever you're switching to won't have any unwanted side effects. i'll cross my fingers for you, too!

spookeydonkey October 30 2008, 08:17:58 UTC

did i mention i had really bad depression throughout highschool and on and off until now? i had it but i didn't really know what depression was, and just plowed my way thru it. but i didn't have anything other than just depression and no energy. you have a lot of shit ( ... )

nbjones October 30 2008, 16:21:48 UTC

you're super lucky that it went away! and perhaps it was helpful that you didn't know what depression was...to know makes me feel worse, sometimes. sorry you had it while you were in japan, too. i feel like its much worse when i'm away from home... perhaps you'll go back to japan and make up for it. do you think you know what may have triggered it when you were there ( ... )

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nbjones October 30 2008, 19:37:51 UTC

yes. i hate when it destroys my semester or if i need to call off work just because walking in would give me a anxiety attack. its hard because how do i tell a teacher, "i'm sorry i didn't finish the paper... i was crying all night/ pulling my hair out all night/ scratching myself up all night". most people i've come across are those "dr. phil" type as you say. i've even had someone tell me that i only do it for attention, wtf? most people don't even know its a problem everyday for me... and when i have "episodes" i lock myself in my apartment. what attention will i get from my cats? no one is around. i don't usually ask others for help and i don't like to talk about it much with some people anymore...so what do i get from it? if i ever hear a "snap out of it/get over it/ just think about happy things" one more time, i swear i'll explode.

thank you so much though, i hope it works out for the better, too. i'm glad you're one of the understanding ones.