I sit here typing this while feeling a heavy melancholy. It's as if I've come to terms with the fact that I've been wasting my time here in Kuwait, and it has to stop. I'm so tired of ping ponging between jobs. I'm so tired of the bureaucratic bullshit that is a part of daily life. I'm so tired of the roads. I'm so tired of sub-par health, free or ( Read more... )

I just wanted to sit and remember the lonely times I had in Ravenna, when I would drive to the sheesha and drive back in solitude, quietness. I really miss that time. I think I have to move out, I like to be alone. I feel as if I can't do anything if I'm at home, I'm not sure why, but I am. I think it comes down to one part, at least, being that I' ( Read more... )

Not sure about when I posted last, but I'll update. Ok, I guess I saw the last update. I was blocked or something for a few weeks, we talked more, then another couple rounds of being blocked. Anyway, all that ended once Pinar went to Turkey. Not sure what changed, but she became a lot better there, and we talked every day and every chance we got it ( Read more... )

I think it's over. Probably. Most likely. I miraculously found her number, and contacted her during Ramadan. Then, I waited until Eid to contact her again. From that day, we talked every day for 3 amazing weeks.

Anyway, it's over now. I feel numb. I'll just try to concentrate on this homework. And fuck it, another pack of cigs. Cuz why the fuck

Wal Mart seems not bad, I guess it's been 5 full months. I worked 3 days of 4 hours overtime in a row, and it's been getting to my wrist. At least next paycheck should be a tiny bit padded. The stupid classes which I should have started a long time ago are $650 each lesson, 8 lessons total and the last 4 are only $600. Next Paycheck should be $1270 ( Read more... )

Since my last post, still not smoking. I've been walking almost daily, but things out of my control force me to stop for a week at a time, and I lost a good month almost where I walked 1/3rd or maybe half the month. I'm at 93kg on average, 92.0 or less if I have an empty stomach. I should have hit 90 on average by now, but it's not a big deal, I ( Read more... )

Two entries in a month who would have thought ( Read more... )

My last update was so long ago, as usual. I just spent 45 minutes or so walking around outside thinking about the good old hot summers in Ohio. Especially when he would either be at his friends, and I would be in his room playing Marathon on the old Performa 550 or whatever number it was. Those days were just so sweet, getting those cold pops to ( Read more... )

I gotta remember to pay my mom 100kd for payback for stealing her quarters when I was a kid to pay for the saturn...and also I should save up and send her to Turkya or Dubai and also go with her.

I could have sworn that I updated a few times since June, but I just got the last entry a few days ago and I should probably update as to whats happened over the last few months, which honestly isn't all that much ( Read more... )