so much angst...

[ncirclesoutaluv]

i feel i hate myself at times. i feel like such a fucking dumbass. i wish there were something i could do about the fact i overanalyze EVERYTHING. i hate that i put so much into what isn't even important and diminish what is. i just don't know what to do anymore. i feel like i should just stop caring about everything. other people always focus on

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[anonymous]

Like i have told you millions of times.... You cant save anyone until you are able to save yourself. now, replace "save" with love, or something like that.

Victoria, I put on 3,000 masks a day and i constantly want to die because i am not able to show the real me. But I know why I am still alive, its because i spread emotion and hope to everyone i meet. I inspire feeling in the apathetic...

Maybe you should overanalyze yourself for a change and found out why you still wake up in the morning.

Josh

[leelah]

god, i could have written this a year and a half ago. advice really won't help, except that you need to live day to day and i PROMISE that love comes along. but it won't complete you. it hasn't completed me. i am still lost, and i have self-loathing days, but he helps me and grounds me and he knows me. just know that if you keep living your life, things come along that you never expected.

aww bicky

[notinvited]

maybe you need a big change in life. save some money, pack a bag, and come to boulder for a visit. and if you like it...then just dont go home! we can become hippies together! and it snowees too.
or get a real job, save money and move into your own place. its hard work so put some effort into it. stop spending your money on stripper shoes and stuff. and giving blowjobs is not the way to earn money. so cut that out. or youll get pregnant in the throat or something. call me if you wanna talk.

Re: aww bicky

[ilooklikerivers]

yeah getting pregnant in the throat is gross. Babies popping out while you're trying to drink some tea, it's just not a pretty sight. Vic, Ruby's right you have to figure out what your priorities are. Once you do that everything becomes much more clear. And nothing great ever happened to anyone w/o some effort. Just try to keep your head above water and push hard.

[ncirclesoutaluv]

my reactions to those comments ranged from tears to laughter. i really appreciate that everyone. one thing i've always lacked is motivation to do what it is i'm trying to accomplish. my friends really do give me the push i need to get on track and attempt reaching certain endeavors i have including helping myself. i can't thank you guys enough for helping me. i appreciate the advice and your lending ears to an immeasurable amount.

[ncirclesoutaluv]

Sometimes you do not want to hear what is correct, for it forces you to take a look in the mirror. I know it must be very hard for you knowing that I can see through you and you bearly even scratched my surface. I know you have a defense to this and I await your rebuttal, but please think through your answer... I am good at picking people apart, ask Fern.

Joshu. Twitch