Weird to think this account still exists. Awesome and at the same time I think oh god look at some of these posts. Wow. There is shit on here from 2005 when I was still dating Jason, crazyness.

so i was taking a study break and thinking about the holidays and how things used to be when i started thinking about this bakery in minnesota. when the ex and i were together we used to go to his moms house in saint paul for christmas and the first time i went there i went to this bakery with his aunt who made me try this sour cream pastry which ( Read more... )

Finally got approved for my unemployment ext. haven't got any $ yet, but i am much relieved. money = paying bills, and actually being able to go do stuff. p.s. being poor sucks balls. so now i have one less thing to worry about which is great cause i have some serious thinking i need to do about stuff and worrying about money was kinda clouding ( Read more... )

i am a big ball of stress right now. i really need to find a job. i am so running out of money. and my dads work could go bankrupt at any minute. they're going to a 32 hr work week but if their sales department doesnt get their act together they might close in two weeks. my dad could probably go on disablitity and get his steel workers pension and ( Read more... )

something is wrong with me. i thought i was doing really well with everything but the last two days ive felt like a psycho. when i think about a certain subect that upsets me i start getting panic attacky and sick to my stomach and i keep breaking out into hives when i get upset. grrr... this is completely fucked because im even on meds now. maybe ( Read more... )

fuck. i woke up in a shiity fucking mood today, had a dream about curran last night. that always makes me fucking hostile. i feel like a lunatic but im out of candy so im just going to have to deal or come home and get drunk tonight. fucking grr.... god my life sucks. and i don't know how to fix it anymore, and i dont really care enough to fix it ( Read more... )

grr. so im not going to davids show tonight since jason backed out on me and no one else is free. so i am going to stay in and watch horror movies and drink. starting with the exorcist. i dont know why i torture myself i know this movie scares the crap out of me. i got my hair cut today. she cut my bangs pretty short which sucks. i shouldve done ( Read more... )

omg i am seriously weirded the fuck out right now. so me and my old roomie were going to go to davids show on friday and he texted me this morning talking about how he didnt want to go anymore and he wanted to do somethng else, and i was like well i dont have any $ so its gotta be something cheap cause im broke as fuck. ps this was all in text msg ( Read more... )

grrr. like things weren't crappy enough I got fired yesterday. And for something completely rediculous. I was booking this load with a customer and it was like 2,500 miles so I was like well the soonest they can get there is Tuesday and he was like oh well they wanted it there Monday. So I was like well if you air chartered it or maybe sent it ( Read more... )

oww oww oww oww oww. i have fucking kidney stones again! how many times am I going to get these bitches. thats just fucking  great. i love wakeing up to searing pain and pissing blood. its awesome! i cant even enjoy the snow day, and vicodin is not helping as much as i thought it would. :(