i don't understand how someone can just decide to exit another person's life. Ende, beenden, verlassen, gone. Just because they decided to. I understand sometimes it happens, and I understand in few (very few) cases, it can be beneficial for both sides. But the vast majority of the time, to leave just because you decided it would be better is not ( Read more... )

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both of us waiting for the other one to make a move, take a step.
i stay up too late, waiting.
wish you would realize the fact that:

but then you might realize too much
and then where would we be?
staying up too late, waiting.

 "to be in a relationship with God is to be loved purely and furiously. and a person who thinks himself unlovable cannot be in a relationship with God because he can’t accept who God is; a Being that is love. we learn that we are lovable or unlovable from other people."

i find this terrifying, and beautiful.

all these stupid masks we wear
i like you well enough without them
wish you would say the same for me

but you've gotten too used to how i look haven't you?

break / up // down / break
break / down // up / break

either way, things are still broken

(questions questions questions)

"looking at you but talking to her. it's quite simple, really."

such an odd state between dreams and reality these days. i've always had extremely vivid dreams, but lately they've been getting to the point where i can't always tell right away which is real and which have existed only behind my eyes. i go to sleep to dream of you telling me things, wake up to ask you about them, turn over, and you aren't there. ( Read more... )

my eyes sting and my heart hurts and i'm fucking sick of feeling so confused all the time ( Read more... )