i really want to take up smoking when i get stressed out

I'm going to be an archaeologist when i grow up. how exciting is that. and a priest on my campus is helping me go to Africa this summer to work with aids orphans. my life is amazing. my roommate's only stipulation was that i don't get aids ( Read more... )

not all who wander are lost. but pleanty of people are lost because they are too afraid to wander. i like declairitive sentances but i can't find any. i want the song but i don't make the effort. maybe i am just lazy. there are too many things that i want to do with my life that i am worried i never will, for any reason. i want to go back to school ( Read more... )

sometimes i really wish my parents put me on adhd meds. i hate focusing. i don't even currently have a good distraction, i just can't take these two papers seriously. goodbye happy grades

i have two take home finals. which means i am spending lots of time on my computer pretending to write them, but really i am writing things that i like to think about. like the coffeeshop/wine bar i want to make, and the architechture for that and my plans for making it an environment for discussion and amazing thought. and of the university i hope ( Read more... )

life is a fucking roller coaster. a little scary, but fun, full of ups and downs and loops and sometimes you even go upside down. and you don't know whether to scream or laugh, or to hold on tight or let go, and you don't know if the harness can really hold you in when sometimes it seems like you are going to break away.

drunk. amazing night ( Read more... )

hahahahahahahaha i finished my last final of the quarter. it is amazing. i am done. completely finished. i can disconnect and become a real person again.

Next quarter's gotta be better than this.

yesterday i had to take my roomate to the hospital for a suicude attempt. She effectively told me goodbye and that she loved me and was sorry sunday night and i didn't realise it. It was the hardest day of my life, but i love my friends so much and i think she is going to be okay, She will be hospitilised till thursday but she got better medicine ( Read more... )

i finally started writing my book. A lot of shit has happened lately that i have had to deal with, but overall i feel happy. I beleive i can deal and i can help the other people in my life deal with it, but it can be tough. I ociliate between wanting to be detached and wanting to be completely connected. so that is mostly what my book is about, the ( Read more... )