I don't reach out to anyone, anymore, and the disturbing thing about it is that I don't even care. I don't even want to. It's not about being shy like it used to be. I used to want so desperately to reach out to people, to try and fill that yearning emptiness inside. And then I was shy, and I would beat myself up for it, and a big turning point was ( Read more... )

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how will it begin?

an intervention
a wrong turn down a reckless highway
of possibility
will it collapse into a line
or expand into a circle

will it be constant points of light
in a web if dancing snow
the first snow of the season driven into
blurred by intention

will it begin at all
or nothing?

lol bf omg ( Read more... )

What I've decided to work on is accepting the reality that I will eventually die. I've decided to work on this by making the decision to not fight death via drastic means. I'm not sure exactly where the line is being drawn but I'm thinking nothing detrimental to my body or spirit, such as chemotherapy or radiation. I'm not sure about surgery; while ( Read more... )

This is true because I shower twice a day and eat like a bird.

In the winter I become something between a normal American hippie man and a bear.

I have a weak, loving spot in my heart for iced coffee with cream and suger from Dunkin Donuts. Oh, the devil holds such sweet nectar.

I've been painting and decorating my room. It is nice. I still need a real bed, but everything else is that close to being perfect ( Read more... )

No one writes on here anymore. I have no friends.

My Livejournal is an empty wasteland of death.

I am so easily obsessible by fictions.

That is my story.

there have been moments when I've tried to influence the kids' politics, trying not to come across as dogmatic, especially as regards gender/sexuality (they are very homophobic). I hesitate to use the word "radicalize" anymore for anyone really, but especially coming from a position of privelege, dealing with people who suffer from more direct ( Read more... )

I'm just plugging away ( Read more... )