maybe once in my life i'll have a boyfriend who actually knows wat it means to be a boyfriend....

i wish i could just do what i wanted with out my parents input and i wish my parents wouldnt put their input into things i do. i looked up this course on how to become a wedding/events planner and it was like an online course like thing and i showed it to my mom and asked if she thought it was legit or just like some sort of scam and she looked and ( Read more... )

im so fuckin sick of people. im so fuckin sick of thinking how amazing my life is and how i have such awesome friends one week and then feeling like i have no one the next. its just such extremes that i think really get me down idk maybe i am bipolar i dont know what the fuck is wrong with me anymore... i want a boyfriend so badly that im scared i ( Read more... )

i wish people could just say things in real life like they do in movies and tv shows. like when ur breaking up with someone you really tell them why and the person in return tells them how they really feel not like u try and lie and tell them nicely or watever and not give ur whole reasoning.. idk i just feel if people were more honest with others ( Read more... )

i hate timothy hanna with EVERY fiber of my being.

i wrote on the last page of my actually journal the other night and now i have no where to write and it suuuucks i wrote on a peice of paper the other night that i will tape into a new journal but like i like having it all neat. i guess this is the next best thing till i get one tomarrow. i babysat today it was actually really fun cuz it was nice ( Read more... )

i fuck everything up.
luke sucks
its sooo awkward to talk to tim who i used to be able to talk to about anything

im so annyoed right now.. whyd i im him..

WHAT THE FUCK! so ur ex girlfriend calls u on ur way home and says she sent u a serious important fb message and u go home and dont even fuckin read it! WTF if he did that to me i would read it the first chance i get!! even if its just out of sheer curiousity like wtf how can he not care to do that! i just want to have the party now and not care ( Read more... )

wow i bet im the only person in the world that lies in their online journal. im done lying to myself. or i dont even know things are crazy. i feel like my life has taken a 360 in 24 hours i dont really know how i feel or think. hmph o well im happy i guess thats all that matters

i wish i wasnt so boy crazy. this year im going to get in trouble. it already kinda started last year but this year is worse, but honestly i dont care cuz my emotions arent going to be affected just others which i really bitchy and a complete lie but still. three people are involved now THREE i dont even know who i am anymore. but i think im wat i ( Read more... )