making goals and i plan on sticking to them:

July 15=130
august 1=120
september 1=110

i plan on updating everyday to make sure my progress is going to plan

144 today. I need to keep going. I want to be at most 125 by the time i start summer school which is July 9, 2007. I need to be 100 by the time I go back to school on Septeber 5, 2007. I need to post alot and eat as little and do as much exercise as I can to achieve this. I will be as skinny as I was the summer of 2005. I will e skinnier.

Ive lost all control. im bigger than ive ever been and that needs to change. Startinng tommrow i will get back my control.

So its a new month and I have new goals. Since I am no where close to the goals that I made before, I will be trying extra hard this time around to complete these. I think right now I am about 122 pounds. So my goals for this month is to lose 3 pounds a week resulting in me being 110 at the most by October 1, 2006. I think that is very do-able ( Read more... )

Still 125. Guess I didnt make my first stg, but im going to try my hardest to make my next. I need to be 110 by school in 2 weeks. I want people to say, " WOw you've lost so much weight."

I think I will be 122 by sat if I eat nothing else for today and nothing tommrow. I have to drink 2morrow, but ill try to keep it at one or two at the most. I hope this doesnt get fucked up over vaca.

I seriously need to stop fucking around and get serious. I need to be at least 120 by next saturday. I need to start journaling everything I eat and exercise. I need to be smarter about this. According to some website, I can be in the 90's by December. I bet I can do it by thanksgiving, right when everyone is coming home for breaks. I will ( Read more... )

things have been weird lately. Ive been taking med's to prevent me from overeating for a while now and I think they are shrinking my stomach. Whenever I eat to much I always "get sick." Its not even like I want to, its like I can feel it in my throat and everytime I breath it just comes closer and closer to to my mouth to the point where I have ( Read more... )

i always take things in the wrong-est? way possible. I recognize this, but i still cant stop myself from crying everyday. My boyfriends my doesnt want him to drive the half hour to see me everday b.c gas is expensive and it wastes alot of gas. But I still see that as her not liking me and not wanting him to see me. My boyfriend got a job and I ( Read more... )

Today is the last of my binge days. I went to my med doctor and he gave me this medicine to help me stop binging, so im hoping this will work when I start it tonight. I just feel like drinkin my sorrows away by myself. I have no friends except for my bf and I no that I made it that way. Im such a fuck up. I hate myself