I think i gained like 3 pounds from NYC, but he said i looked great and "breath-taking." I miss him already, but now im determined to look amazing when i see him again. 3 weeks to lose 10 pounds, it can definately be done!!!

back to 130. Need more discipline. Need to fight the urge to binge. Need to be better than myself. I can and will do this.

Today's Intake:

lean cuisine w. roll = 350
boca burger w. pita = 150
fiber one bar = 140
--------------------->640

gym is gonna be weights and ill do cardio at home.

liquid fast til thursday. I want to look good when I go to NYC. I no Ill be drinking alot there and probably gain whatever i lose back, but then i have three weeks to get to 117. I have to do this. Bad eating today so I must punish myself with strict strict control of my intake.

I no, 3 posts in one day is a bit obsessive, but who the hell cares? Isnt obsession a part of this whole bulimia things anyways? Had around 1700 today and this will be the last day of that. I am going to restrict down to 300 cals so I can be 125 by the time I visit Dom on friday. I need to get this weight off. I cant even begin to think about ( Read more... )

I want to go out. I want to get drunk. I want to let go of all the stress and anxiety Ive been feeling this week, but I cant. I have no friends and no one to go out with. I have nothing to do. Im pointless.

I need to get a hold of myself. I havent lost any weight for like a week and its starting to get to me. Ive even been going to the gym twice a day and eating varied amounts. Ive only purged once this week, and i drank some lax tea, but i dont no what else to do.. I tried to eat up to 2000 cals yest. but i got scared and purged. I need to keep ( Read more... )

Got down to 128. Definately not going to make it to 125 in two days, but ill try my fucking darndest. I go see my bf in 2 weeks and i have to be 120 by then. Im going to restrict to 600 cals per day, whichc shouldnt be too hard since ill be in school and workings. After this i want to be 110 by October 1, then 100 by thanksgiving. I have to ( Read more... )

So im still the same weight. I need to be stronger. I have to get thinner. my bf is going back to school and he already told me that his ex has lost weight and is like "110 and looks disgusting." Ive been telling him all summer that I want to be 110, and now I have so many more reasons to want to. I have to be thinner than her. Im going to ( Read more... )

Finally 136. Ive broken that god awful plateau. I have 4 more weeks to get to 115. I have to lose about 5 pounds a week to get there, but i no I can do it. With progress and success I will update.

147

this is after eating half a lobster roll and 4 onion rings

i will walk on the treadmill for an hour soon and do some weights. Probably going out tonight, but im going to do a liquid fast soon enough.