yesss i am retarded. don't know what i was thinking last night. though i somehow feel better now. not sure how that works ( Read more... )

What a day.

Commissioning: so proud of catlan. saw jay and fam. lost it, of course.
Wicked: Awesome :)
Melting Pot: Always a pleasure
Bachellorette party: mai thai's
Jason: "if you're going to do it, do it right. If you can't do it right, don't do it. But if you do, forget about me. Don't look back."

it's been a few days, but i still feel stressed... not sure why ( Read more... )

done ( Read more... )

modex:
just quit!! "pastor you don't understand!" just quit! "but I..." just quit!!

ok.

Also, i liked soemthing else he said:
imagine yourself in a 6 foot donald duck suit. do you think you could act like yourself as a 6foot duck? i mean, even if you forgot for a second, you were a duck, you could look in a window and you'd know right away, you were a ( Read more... )

Totally bombed my prob and stat final. oops. oh well, still have a B. can't complain. GPA's still doing pretty well.

hah so, i keep going back and forth between several different personalities...
one is super confident, people love her, look up to her, and she brightens the room with a smile
one is still hurt, doesn't want to invest in anyone, doesn ( Read more... )

favorite quote

"I love you, in a really, really big pretend to like your taste in music, let you eat the last piece of cheesecake, hold a radio over my head outside your window, unfortunate way that makes me hate you, love you. So pick me, choose me, love me."

has no relevance to my life, at the moment, i just like it :)

so, even though i'm sick and exhausted because i've seen 3am five times this week thanks to finals, i'm quite content.
also, me and god are doing really well right now. nothing fancy, just holding steady. good suff.
conference is today/tomorrow. 4x8, steeple, high jump (wouldn't be suprised to see a 4x4 too)
it may be my last meet ever :)

I guess i should mention i told Jay that my goal is to never see or hear from him or about him again.
it's not really a big deal since i rarely do anyways. i'm not being dramatic, just noting a personal step forward i guess.
still can't imagine feeling that way again, but i'm at a point where that's okay for now.
i'm the settling down type. when the ( Read more... )

An I'll grab the wheel and point it west ( Read more... )