a note with flowers, delivered to my door ( Read more... )

i feel. used? i know that's not the right word for the situation, but it's the only way i can describe it

i just have this bad taste in my mouth for everything "religious".
me and god are doing just fine. but i'm i completely frustrated with all the "religious systems" in my life.
is seems like all first baptist does is play with my emotions, and all ( Read more... )

i'm feeling confident today.
like everything's going to work out okay.
i hear back from PBS&J soon about my job. (hopefully)
i've picked out a church, and an apartment.

for a long time i was in one of those phases where it was like i was standing on the ledge waiting for someone to push me. And maybe they did, maybe they didn't. But i feel like i'm ( Read more... )

Wizard: What do you want to be in the world? I mean the whole world. What do you want to be? Close your eyes and think about that ( Read more... )

i miss him today :( haven't felt that particular emotion so strongly in a while. it's a little bittersweet ( Read more... )

i am stoked.
so many things have gone absolutely perfectly this weekend

the living room was awesome, as usual. jerry did a great job, the food was fantastic, and it felt like home.
the track meet should have been terrible, but i got to high jump, had a complete blast! and i did really well considering i'd never done it before and i tied andrea for the ( Read more... )

so i was talking to catlan the other day, and he was saying how he plans on having 14 kids and not live in a particularly nice house.
and i was thinking, man. what would happen if I was in that position, where the guy i love is like a pastor or a missionary or something, and i would never ever get to have my deam house. or anything like it. i was ( Read more... )

yay snowboarding. lots of sore muscles though lol

LOL a conversation that just went on:
beth: "what did you do with your hot chocolate mug when you were done"
me:"i washed it"
beth: "no, really, what did you do with it"

He was born in the summer of his 27th year
Comin' home to a place he'd never been before
He left yesterday behind him, you might say ( Read more... )

Trying to remember:
Stress does not come from God, it comes from me.
If i am stressed, it means I'm trying to depend on myself.
Bad plan.
I suck at life lol. God created it.
His plan sounds better.

Just ok Is not enough
Help me fight through the nothingness of life

I don’t wanna go through the motions
I don’t wanna go one more day
Without Your all consuming passion inside of me
I don’t wanna spend my whole life asking
What if I had given everything?
Instead of going through the motions

No regrets
Not this time
I’m gonna let my heart defeat my mind
Let ( Read more... )