Everyday I learn something new about human beings at work. Today I became firghtingly aware of just how fragile a human is, not necessarily physically, I learned that a long time ago. The human spirit, mind, I suppose...a man died in a car accident because he didn't put his seat belt on and we did the burial, the family was traumatized, I mean the ( Read more... )

I asked my mom what she wanted for her birthday and she said “for you to find another place to live”. I put that in my pipe and smoked it and now I’m choking and dying having a seizure on the floor ( Read more... )

HAPPY HALLOWEEN ( Read more... )

You wake up with an ache behind your eyes and by the time you open them tears are flooding and too fast to assess the situation, was it a bad dream or are you really hurt? Why are you in the corner in the dark staring at all the vacant area around you? Where did the sense of abandonment arise from? Isn’t it petty to think that just because you are ( Read more... )

Last night I took my brother out to buy everything for his Halloween costume and then took him to dinner and he is so fucking INCONSIDERATE. You have no idea how bad I want to kick his ass this morning, I mean I feel like throwing knives I am so mad which is why I am venting here instead of going through and relieving my agression toward him ( Read more... )

I have two very sinister gold fish every time I intorduce a new fish to the aquarium they welcome him with open arms, politely share their gold fish flakes and allow them to get comfy. The last two fish have been house cleaning. They were algae eaters, so the goldfish did not even have to share their flakes because, these last two fish have only ( Read more... )

At work today I spent about an hour sitting in the lobby with an old man who comes by every day. He's 93, his wife died about 4 years ago and she is buried in one of our gardens. He comes to see her every single day. Sometimes he drops by the office and talks to us about her. He wants to die so bad. He misses her so much its heart breaking. He ( Read more... )

So I learned tonight that I can get a little extra grant/scholarship money towards my last semster if I do some volunteer work. The program director forwarded me some information from the United Way about a program called Big Brothers, Big Sisters where you, as an individual or with your partner as a couple, volunteer to mentor a less fortunate ( Read more... )

I am always soooo tired, I could sleep three-quarters of the day away sprawled out across sofas and in the floor or on top of pillows just like the cat. Last night and tonight I can't seem to get to bed though and I probably won't until he's back in the city I'm sure thats it. I don't have to work tomorrow so in reality it doesn't matter when or if ( Read more... )

I'm picking up and holding snuggly, all the little tiny things that continuosly slip out the bottom of my overloaded arms while I am just trying to walk normal, despite the exhaustion, through the rugged, undeveloped terrain of my 40,000 square acres of wasteland of a mind that I will never be able to landsape like an english garden ( Read more... )