I got hired for a new job today. After walking out of the interview I dismissed it as a total loss and 30 minutes later I got a called with an offer to my surprise and accepted. I had to go through some hurdles. I had to be finger printed and I had to consent to a background check, credit check, get a drug screening which most of those things I ( Read more... )

I had the strangest dream last night that a black cat named Nigel came to me and he could talk, and boy did we. In the dream it seemed so perfectly normal that he could talk. His voice was magic, like it was audible energy, it was thick like honey with an electrical charge to it almost. It made my skin tingle and when he laughed I couldn't keep the ( Read more... )

I hate how I manage to let other people's opinions boil my self confidence down to worthless jelly. I am what I am and I am not a bad person. I can come across as bitchy and mean and maybe even violent when I kid around but I am always putting other people's interest and well being ahead and maybe my little act leads people to believe otherwise ( Read more... )

Cross the street from your storefront cemetery ( Read more... )

Its fucking sickening the hurt, the act of picking out the splinters where the stake went though. It’s a fucking killer. I am so full of so many extreme emotions that I can barely contain them. I can feel them right under the surface like a trapped thing, like if I just sliced my skin open it would pour out and I would be purged of this fucking ( Read more... )

I am sure that if you don't live in Florida that you are probably laughing at me for freaking out about this but if you live here you can understand my excitement.

( Onto the silly Freeze pics... )

I am feeling surprisingly optimistic. I definitely didn’t start my day this way. I actually spent the first half of my day saturated with depression so I slothed it, laid on the bed drifting in and out of consciousness for hours upon hours beside Steven while he watched football. He kept rubbing my bare skin like a pet and its funny but physical ( Read more... )

Never have I made so many parallel moves in the attempt for bettering in any year of my life. Some I knew when I was doing it, others I woke up in the midst of like being slapped in the face at the realization there was no improvement. I wish better things on myself for 2008 but I don’t think I am strong enough or well enough at mind to execute the ( Read more... )

If there was a better way to go then it would find me
I can't help it the road just rolls out behind me
Be kind to me or treat me mean
I'll make the most of it I'm an extraordinary machine

At 3AM I smell you, would that be cold steel and gun oil? I watch you standing across the room in a shadow and if I weren’t so sharp I would never notice, you being the epitome of stealth. Avoiding mirrors and exploiting angles so you blend in. When I try to catch your eyes I always find that hardened face turned into your coat collar eyes closed ( Read more... )