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No control
You never wanted me!! You thought you knew me, but you wouldn't let me be me. You tried to mold me into a version of me that you wanted me to be. It didn't work, did it? You wanted a puppet to play with and when you were done with me, you threw me away. You're selfish and I can see you through your lies. I felt so out of place and never felt like ( Read more... ) -
Real feelings
I guess what you said about unconditional love wasn't real. You abandoned me like my "real family" did. You're no different than them. You may feel like I abandoned you and maybe I did. I didn't want to feel like this but it's too late for that. We abandoned each other. It's sad really because you have a grandson you don't want to see or love. You' ( Read more... ) -
Untitled
Sitting in my room, nowhere to run to. I'm in trouble again and I feel invisible. Why don't they see me? All they see are my mistakes. Trying to suppress me, I want to rebel, but I feel so small. My voice would never be heard ( Read more... ) -
How time flies!
Wow! I can't believe it's been so long since I've been on here. There's so much to tell. I had a baby, my dad passed, :( and life is good! :) I've been up, down, and all around. I need to get back into writing though. I miss it and it's who I am. -
Truth
How is it that adults feel that they need to "sugar coat" things for their adult children? Apparently, I have been the victim of that. Its really something when my 14 year old nephew can tell me the truth and YOU can't! What does that say about you?! You haven't changed one bit! Its so official because now I can say that I do NOT want anything to ( Read more... ) -
(Untitled)
Wow! I have not posted anything since I was in Texas. That sucks. lol! There has been a lot that has happened. I am still trying to process everything but I have also never left Ypsilanti because Sean and I have really progressed and we have been together ever since. However, there have been some things that have been going on. I don't know what to ( Read more... ) -
No Home
As the last days of 2011 come to a close, I wonder what will be in the up coming year for 2012. As I can hear my parents talking downstairs, I wonder what will our relationship will be like. As far as they are concerned, I am not their daughter anymore. I don't even know why I came to Texas in the first place. Though, it is my fault that they don't ( Read more... ) -
(Untitled)
There are some nights where I just lay in bed and think, why? This simple question has plauged me in my life for the past 20 years. These questions will never be answered. Can I go and dig for the answers myself or will they be locked away forever? The only person that has the true answers, is cremated and buried six feet under, locked away for ( Read more... ) -
Nothingness
I feel so empty and hollow. I feel nothing. All that there is of me is nothingness, just a black hole that feels nothing. Numbness comes to mind as well. -
To Mommy
Through the ups and downs ( Read more... )