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The Animal Within
A good friend recently said something that has been giving me a lot to think about. He said that when he gets aroused his personality changes. He notices a difference and it can be hard to control, and I realized it’s the same fore me. It was like something clicked, at least in my head it felt like it did. For a very long time now I have ( Read more... ) -
Dear 2010
Dear New Year 2010,
I spent my new year’s eve alone, quite intentionally. The last two weeks have been a concentrated effort focused on self reflection. There comes a time in life where these issues are important and I am fortunate enough to give them the attention they deserve. Growing up in school and life you are constantly being taught to plan, ( Read more... ) -
Life, the show must go on.
I haven't felt much like writing. Let alone had much time. I force myself to stay this busy because I don't want to feel these things that I feel. I learned very early how much emotions can hurt. These days it feels like I'm in a stupor, like I'm some kind of human clam content to live in my warm, happy, safe shell. There's an element of ( Read more... ) -
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I'm still here and I have a feeling this year is turning into the year of hell. I agreed to do about 4-5 plays between now and summer time, maybe more. I can't keep track anymore. My parents have decided to put the house on the market and I still need to pay off bills before I can afford to move. Angel's doing a lot better! I hope things can ( Read more... ) -
Here some more
Starting to work out again and get myself back on track. Angel's been really sad without me here, I keep forgetting she used to have a playmate all day and now has none. I would get another friend for her if I could. I'm going to start taking her on longer walks and drive around somewhere new at least once a week. I want my puppy to have a ( Read more... ) -
I'm still here!
Sorry I haven't been around for a bit, for some reason I agreed to work on several plays in a row. In part to take my mind away from things. So far it's been great, I enjoy the work and working with other people. I can't say I'm "better" because there is still a lot of emotional conflict. But I am happy and that's the important part. Now that ( Read more... ) -
No truer words spoken.
"There is nothing either good or bad, but thinking makes it so."
Hamlet
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missing lj friends
Posting are becoming more scant, I miss my lj friends. Thanks to Dave, Chris, Kat and Jessie & Jolene for keeping it going. :-) At least a little.
Some of my friends haven't posted in years. I guess I just used to thrive on writing and reading that of others. Sharing things I am not able to share otherwise in any other medium. Pen to paper ( Read more... ) -
Misadventures of the week
I took a half-day off work on Friday to see Brian (Keats or Dr. B as he is called). Brian is one of my best friends that moved to Hawaii about two years ago. I haven't seen him in almost two years and this was his second time back to MD since he left (his first long trip). We had a really hard time finding time to get together, between my work ( Read more... )