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again
so i managed to fuck things up again. it never fails. only this time i dont know what i did wrong. ohwell. boys come and boys go. only this one took my heart with him. -
odd
so yeah, tonight was strnge. craig wants me to go to colorado with him and his fam to spread his moms ashes, i really want to go. colin and i just had a hard and truthful convo. how i shut people out, n dont show my feelings. i feel AWFUL. seriously. i think he hates me but what can i do, besides move out. i wish it was time for me to go home. i ( Read more... ) -
no money
so yeah, my roomie is out for the night, eating dinner with his friends. i have $0.76 to my name till next friday because some one stole money out of my wallet in school, and i havent eaten since wednesday, LITTELY, i feel so weak. i cant tell mom i dont have money because shell kill me. so ill starve. ohwell, more the 50% of the world starves ( Read more... ) -
lonley
so my roomate moved outto e with his psycho best friend, what ever, the internet/tv r getting shutof tuesday, what ever, the kitchen sink is clogged and cant be fixed, what ever, ijust have no one totalk to or hang out with, that hurts. im so lonly here, its not even funny. i just want to move out of franch and comeback home to the living andloving ( Read more... ) -
depressed
i want to go home, i dont know whats wrongwith me,imsad crying my eyes out ad i dont want to be here any more.i hate it, and my life here.this was a mistake -
Writer's Block: Who's in your neighborhood
im sick with a cold, and boredout of my mind. ithought living with a friendwouldbee cool, instead i still feeltrapped. i feel astho he wantmore from me then friendship, or maby its my imagination.i dunno,we had a descussion last night and he think i hate france,i dont i hate the fact i cant speak the language. and everythingis toclose for ( Read more... ) -
bored
im sick with a cold, and boredout of my mind. ithought living with a friendwouldbee cool, instead i still feeltrapped. i feel astho he wantmore from me then friendship, or maby its my imagination.i dunno,we had a descussion last night and he think i hate france,i dont i hate the fact i cant speak the language. and everythingis toclose for ( Read more... ) -
confussed
ok im confussed, seriously.i had a beer with francois, i figured out i still love him, but i dont want to be with him, and yet i do. ive been through so much just to be with him, and here i am stuck between a rock and a hard place. mom says i should see how things go when i get home with craig, which sounds great, but what if i get ome and he has ( Read more... ) -
i moved out
alot happened i left franncois sat and feel good, i have been thinking bout craig ALOT, i miss home but ill be their in a month YAY school is going good, and i miss everyone from home. thats about it. yeah i REALLY cant get craig out of my mind, i keep having dreams with him in it. -
home
i want to go home. i know i havent written in a LONG time, but im in paris france with my supposed fiancee, and all we do is fight. i really miss home. i was freezing my ass off tonight like usual at his parents house! and amm he said was their is nothing i can do. well duh get yiour brother blanket off his bed or cudfdle with me; but all i got was ( Read more... )