tomorrow is my first evening program. it's a 40 something minute presentation on predatory mammals in the black canyon (lions and bobcats and bears, oh my)... and i'm completely unprepared. i haven't done hardly any research, i've gotten a few photos offline, and i have the title slide for my powerpoint ( Read more... )

so my sister got married. and it was amazing. i didn't think it would be so impactful for me, because it's not my wedding. but this is terrible but honest, that day was the only day my whole life where i have stared at my sister and truly believed that she is way prettier than i am. the church glowed, i kid you not. it was brilliant ( Read more... )

IT SNOWED TODAY ( Read more... )

filling out paperwork makes me feel shifty. i'm trying to go back to where i lived and worked seven years ago (which is ridiculous because i was only 13) and it takes pages and pages. seven years ago today i was still in illinois and that seems like lifetimes ago ( Read more... )

i am back in colorado ( Read more... )

i'm trying to be pleasantly drunk and he calls me about laminin. laminin, the tiny, microscopic protein that holds us all together. he gives me books to read about my soul and bluegrass and heaven. it makes me so conflicted ( Read more... )

i suppose i don't think about it anymore because my life has been much the same as it always is when i'm being independent, or pretending to be independent. j'ai cru que je deviens folle, mais je crois que c'est fini et je suis d'accord... and i kind of hate it.

oh, forget it.

having a difficult time adjusting to being back in school and back at the holt. it's not because anything has been particularly hard thus far - it should actually be a pretty easy semester sans organic. i don't think it's because i miss colorado, although i do but only because the sky was clearer ( Read more... )

i got home from colorado at ... 5 in the morning last night or so. i stopped at walmart to buy drugs, lots of drugs. and an oatmeal bath. you see, i was climbing a tree on friday night trying to save a kitten ( Read more... )

i say something about not using the computer for anything but emails and my keyboard stops working ( Read more... )