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[neo0one]

So much for updating more often, but it is what it is. Things have been pretty hard for me lately, I can't lie. I've been pretty depressed living here in Worcester--I just feel very cut off from my "real life." My old friends are so distant, my family is so distant, and I've just felt very alone and sort of trapped in a rut. Nate has been feeling

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[hoshi07]

I updated my own LJ with this, but in case you didn't see it:

Last fall, I was talking to my friend Sarah, actually I sent her something I wrote. I was feeling depressed, and hopeless, and overwhelmed. She sent me the following:

"As always, your words remind me of the great Don Drapper: “I have been watching my life. I keep scratching at it, trying to get into it. I can’t.” So if that doesn't tell you that your feelings are a universal burden of the human race as a whole, I don't know what does. (By the way, the response to this from his then girlfriend was "The only thing keeping you from happiness is the belief that you are alone"). Embrace the uncertainty yo! You'll look back on this as such an exciting time in your life, and you'll be envious that you can kinda just go where the wind takes you. Plus, It's you. You know you'll be fine/figure something out."

It really helped me in that moment, and maybe it will help you too.

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DIS ONE LOVES DAT ONE

also i just have to say that this is pretty much how i felt after i graduated too. I didn't get a "real job" and i felt like i was just floating along with no purpose. i still feel that way sometimes but the most important thing is to do the things that make you happy...and not just happy in the moment but happy long term.

i am finally getting a rel studio that i can afford and i want to make a serious effort to make art and sell art...in other words be an artist fo real. most days i really just want to sit in bed and watch xfiles but i realize it is pointless and even tho i like doing that...after a while i feel like i am wasting my life away.

having goals is one of the most important things you can do when you are feeling down and directionless because it will give you direction, and it will give you purpose.

i love you caddy! visit me soon betch!!!