I think I am going to try to think about stupid things less. I always have had flashbacks of like evrything I ever did that was retarded and I'm just tired of it. I'm feeling a little holiday melancholy. It's not to say I'm depressed, I'm actively fighting depression and coming out on top because I'm taking the cause and effect into account ( Read more... )

My roommate and I have been making a Shadowrun 4th ed game online. It's all text based. If you've heard of a MUSH or a MUD, it's somewhat like those, but a person is running the scene as a GM and there are no pictures. Dice and character sheets are coded into it. You don't need anything to play except a basic grasp of grammar and shadowrun ( Read more... )

I really wish I learned to have fun at a younger age. I look back sometimes and think of all the fun I missed out on because I was too busy being emo ( Read more... )

I have been reflecting on the phrase "How does one accept the unacceptable" for weeks. I think I had a glimpse of insight just now. I was thinking of the things I was powerless to change and how, if I was in a different position, it might not have happened. I can't change what has come to pass, but I can make things better in the future ( Read more... )

Life... She is a beetch, non?

I am in a mood today. I thought it was just the lack of cigarettes, but I have some now, and I'm still in my "Dark Place", lol. I dunno. I keep watching funny videos and I smoked a bowl, so it's slowly subsiding.

I'm just tense and seeting. I feel like I need to shout, or run... I dunno.

I'm good. Just eekish and

Good, good morning today! I got to go to cicis and I stuffed myself to my absolute capacity with pizza and salad and iced tea. Had a pleasant walk in nice weather, and did a lotta spring cleaning. I'm an eating pussy these days, I only put away like one pizza's worth of pizza, I used to put ninja turtles to shame with that shit, I felt kinda puny ( Read more... )

I woke up in a bad way, to a blistering song that ravaged my delicate psyche to the core and pushed me into a dark pit of my stomache that I never wish to revisit ( Read more... )

My friend is dying of cancer and her kid brought home all the quatrers out of a fountain she saw and said "I stole all of the wishes so they would make you better".

I have never heard anything so touching in my life ;_;

(He who shall not be named): Did a search on the band Vaakevandring, turns out there's such a thing as Christian Black Metal.

me: I hope god strikes them down
hard
like with a dick

Habits I intend to break to stop running in the same circles ( Read more... )