I was watching this episode of Everybody Loves Raymond and in this show they finally figure out that they are very boring people and have the same fears. Well now that I think about it, how boring am I. I am actually thinking that it would have been better for me to just stay at work and get that completed while I had my little interactions with ( Read more... )

I dunno what to do, all I think about and this is like shifting thoughts, all together at one frame of mind I think, I know that I won’t have a job, if not by December then by April which still doesn’t buy me enough time to get my immigration, ahhhhh!!! Well I have started hunting again, so let’s see what happens. I took a big risky decision in ( Read more... )

I had a very long day today. It began during the late hours of the morning. “Out of bed!” a voice sounds, it was as though someone had woken me up. I had a crazy dream last night and there was this field of some kind of straw looking things, they were almost golden in color, I almost know what it is, but it is not as vivid as I would like to ( Read more... )

Out of the blue I find out that there are a couple of people heading off to Saint John for the day. I get offered a ride, I accept. Knowing not what lies ahead of me. Woke up really early in the morning and we were off to Saint John. We got there just a bit after 11:15 or so. I have enough time to get some much needed hair trimming done and a ( Read more... )

What have i become??? I possibly could not have done what I did today to the person that I love so dearly, my consience doesnot allow it although at the time, I didnot even think once about it! I am not the person that I acted out to be tonight, how am I ever going to be able to forgive myself for this! OMG and on top of everything at this delicate ( Read more... )

I am confused ( Read more... )

I wish I had not lost my license, a long long loooooonnnnng drive is need. Me and my music and the feel of the road under my hands... Someone please loan me their car for atleast a couple of hours...

I am reaching my melt down point, I dunno, I woke up this morning and really don't have a good feeling. It's the dreams that I saw, running every where, nothing going my way, or maybe it is just not the way that I want it to be. I had the worst dream ever, atleast at this point in time I didnot need to see all that I saw and so distinct and so ( Read more... )

its been a while since my last entry and a lot has happened since then. I am now in Bathurst, and to think that I didnot have much to do in Saint John, ughhh!!! I love Saint John now, want to be there more than anything else, especially since my girl is there and my whole life is there for that reason. Its been a whole wierd month and too much time ( Read more... )

I am confused, I am going crazy, ughhhhhh!!! The good news is that I did get a job, but that is it, its not a job I want to be at, it has nothing to do with my field of study, I don't see the point. I am going to get paid less, and as hard as I tried not to let go of this place that I have so unknowingly gotten accustomed to I still will have to, I ( Read more... )