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its been a month since I have made it out to Dubai. I feel a lot better since quitting everything that I deemed was fucking my brain up. No Alcohol, no weed and no ciggarettes. It feel nice not to have fucked up thoughts all the time.

I have different things to worry about now but they seem insignificant right now, I still do not have a job, money ( Read more... )

 
I needed to resort to this again. There is too much going on in my head all over again and I am tired of going through this cycle over and over again. Some how writing things out has always helped me more than anything else. It’s like no one is there to listen, the least I can say is that no one is out there to listen to me without judging me for ( Read more... )

Hello Journal,
It has been the longest time since I have visited you, but that is the purpose of this journal, I vent here and I guess I have not had the need to for a while and I have been holding it in for way too long. I know none of the people that used to visit come here any more. Hoping no one does anymore, hell, I don't even think anyone ( Read more... )

I am bored, I need something to do. Go and party somewhere. I miss going out, drinking and dancing my ass off. The most excersize I used to get for that matter. lolz... I know that working life is supposed to suck, but not this much. I am happy though for the most part. My girl is with me and yes I am still right here in Bathurst the dead city, or ( Read more... )

My tolerance for Bathurst is decreasing by the day. I am so not happy here, but I am forced to be here. My life has reduced down to work and home and then work again. I absolutely cannot stand this, every once in a while someone decides to take me out to play pool, to tell you the truth this all my life is reduced down to. My heart is in SJ, that ( Read more... )

Its six'o'clock in the fucking morning and I cannot sleep because I am being haunted of how embarrissing my night has been tonight. I am going to be famous in Bathurst tommorrow, or should I say infamous. I hate this town all together and I cannot stand this place anymore. Tonight was past my limit and I cannot stand to stay here any longer. How ( Read more... )

I have never felt so humiliated in my life. Oh today was definately one of the worst days of my life. I am tired and I hate this place and I really don't know if I can take anymore of this. For all you people that have worked call centre jobs before you know what I am talking about. Take like a 14-15 hour dose of it 3-4 times a week with two days ( Read more... )

it hass been ages once again since i have filled up anything in here. This trying to quit smoking thing is going badly, everyday i think ok today i am not going to have any at all and see what happens, but at the end of the day i go and still have my half a cigg at dusk, when i break my fast, and the rest of it just as soon as i am done eating. ( Read more... )

I am fucked out of my mind, too much going on at the same time and irnoically nothing to do. ughhhh!!!!