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[neojackal]

I feel sick today. Not physically sick, but deeply sick in the pit of my stomach, in every nerve ending, through every bone. I'm afraid I'm going to end up alone so soon, when all I want right now is to be with someone. I don't necessarily mean a relationship of boyfriend, mate, what have you. I just mean alone. Again

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[keikan]

I occasionally have this sort of feeling, though it hasn't been that strong in a while. The best way that I remember defeating that feeling was sinking myself into work, school, whatever, and trying to forget that sensation while trying to better myself enough so that I'd eventually have the means to see the people I cared about again. Online friends helped, too -- I'm fortunate enough to know some great people who were willing to listen when I really needed to talk.

I hope some of this helps you -- I'm not sure what else I can do right now. Sucks!

-Mikori

[akenamenti]

Being selfish is part of the human condition, Neo. But in this case, feeling so is completely unwarrented. For the moment, it doesn't look as though I'll be going anywhere. And even if I do have no reason to stay but you, it is reason enough for me. I may not be near, but neither will I be any farther then I have been these last several months.

I know a bit of what you're going through. Until recently, I never had a problem with being alone. If anything, I preferred it. That has changed. A select few people have become so important to me that being without them feels as though it's hard to breathe. It's discomforting but I would like to think it's also a good sign, a sign that I have been making some of the changes that I have been wanting to for some time now.

You're never alone. Not anymore, at least.

My love and well-wishes,

~A