i wish i were a robot so i wouldn't have all these emotions, just cold logic. then, instead of caring about people and getting wrapped up in emotions and being lethargic, i could just crush those people in my metal hands and accomplish more tasks than i ever thought possible. ah to be a robot. not a care in the world, but crushing skulls and ( Read more... )

today is [hopefully] going to be productive, and not that ugly stepsister of hers, counter produtive.

is it in my future to be a 21 year old freshman in college? a real college i suppose...whenever i can get out of this town this shitty community college...i can't believe it's taking me so long to finish this bullshit...oh well, after next semester when i finally have my gpa up and something of a portfolio to work with i am going to get the hell ( Read more... )

carla and i went out to the weenie roast last night...athens is more backward than i remember, and i hardly spoke to any family members out there, except the ones i already talk to now...but it was all good. carla and i finally got to roll that joint and it was fabulous. it started raining really terribly and we ran for the car and drove away, only ( Read more... )

ok so here's an entry! can you all believe it, my adoring public? all none of you? well i have a little time to kill so here's some fluff about the past week ( Read more... )

it all turned out like meredith said...carla and sean still have feelings for each other, and i'm tossed aside like some rag doll. i've been hurt. i almost cried the other day when it hit, and carla there with a blanket over her head so she wouldn't have to look at me...she must have been overcome by guilt. sean lied to me about how he felt about ( Read more... )

1.Woken up by phone call - dressed - went to Little Joe in Chatham and parked in the parking lot across from it. Walked right in and suprised Carla, because she forgot I was coming. Had a few cups of coffee and a bagel and smoked and helped clean the store, then left for home very aloof, which made Carla say something about myself acting all ( Read more... )

i write stuff about my personal life so you bastards can give me some insight into it! i let everyone see what i'm writing! what more do you want!?

so i bought a four track the other day and it's been working out well. good to finally have one of my own...i skipped painting class in favor of hanging out with sean, because i could not get a hold of carla, but then she called sean and then myself andcame along with us...it was strange. not in a bad way i suppose, but strange for the fact of ( Read more... )

my thoughts are seldom positive. i can't help it. maybe i'm just too emotional. over-analyzation isn't a good thing.