Well the guilt I feel the next day from getting drunk isn't quite enough. I guess I have to get drunk and become a total ass to realize I need to stop getting drunk.

I'm cutting back for real this time.... Really. D:

I am addicted to two things that I am trying very hard to cut down on. These two things have been staring me in the face all the night. I have not-so-calmly been avoiding them by keeping busy. It's funny how one call can make you feel like you should just do whatever you want anyway. But I am going to be strong and keep my head high. Hopefully I'll ( Read more... )

Certain things that I thought were going to be a great investment and all are turning sour. Now, this can just be a bump in the road type of thing but this time I swear I'm not going to hold on to anything rotten. I'm going to buck up and cut my losses if the time comes instead of putting it off. Hizzah.

Why does the start of every new year suck for me? While every one else is being positive, making comfortable changes, and sharing happy memories I am stuck at home alone being scared out of my mind over nothing and worrying about crap, crap crap. Hooray! Listen to my pity party! Bahahaha ( Read more... )

A used-to-be-friend is a complete internet idiot and it currently whoring around in the scummiest parts showing her vagina, promising to fuck local people while 'drunk,' and making REALLY HORRIBLE stripping videos. She looks like a fool. People are using her for sex, nudes, and what have you and she thinks she is being cool. Maybe she thinks ( Read more... )

Really, I guess I'm a selfish child or whatnot but I cannot stand being told what to do and how to live my life. Why can't I just do what I want to do, within reasonable limits (derp). Is it really all that bad that I want to drink/hang with friends/stay home alone/go out for a night/whatever? I mean, I'd like to think I deserve to live a happy ( Read more... )

Hah. So I read into some old things I'd written down and I'm very glad I'm no longer letting myself chase people who just want to use me for their own self promotion. I had no good reason to care for most of these people. Yes, one person in particular was good to me at one point, but now they make me feel like shit so what's the point ( Read more... )

The two things I have the most, most, most managed to happen to me in the last twelve hours by twp different people whom I'm sure really didn't mean to. However, I'm pretty cheesed about it anyway so I'll bitch and hide out until I need to go to work. I hate being ditched and being lied to. I really wasn't ditched last night, I just thought someone ( Read more... )

I spent Thanksgiving in Shasta county. I was not thrilled to be heading that way but everything ended up going way better then I thought. I didn't have to see too much of my family and I got to see more friends then I expected. I don't really want to go into details because I'm supposed to be getting ready. Maybe I'll be less lame later. <3

Heyheyheeeyyy~!!! I forgot how long I'd actually had this thing and found out that I have some really emo shit on here. Oops! I hope I can delete. xD <3