It is that time again. Gotta change. Right now, the way I am, isn't so good for being on Jurisdiction. Generally speaking it is good but I am not able to break outta my group. I been doing well this past year, but not well enough. Gotta work on my people skills more. But talkin to strangers in the mall has been helping. There are many other ( Read more... )

So NCDA's Grand Master's Class has come and pass and here I am. Tired as hell. Wasted. Exhausted. Every ounce of energy, of strength, of anything and everything that makes me has been used ( Read more... )

Man I care way too god damn f'in much for my own good. People use and abuse my kindness. Pisses me off. I just try to be the friend to them as I would hope for in return (wishful thinkin bu whatever) and look how it goes. Everytime it gets used and abused. Worst of all my achilles heel doesn't quite help the situation. Gah. And I said that I ( Read more... )

So the meeting went well. 3 guys going to GMC this weekend. My good deed for the time being. Heh heh.

So I finally put my addiction for yugi down but my desire for magic still drives. I just invested a bit in the latest set.

I have not thought much of the elections really. I should. I need to make posters and...well that's it really.

So I'm doing pretty good today. My heart is good. School is good, got another A on my essay making straight A's on every essay I have done for her minus the first one which was a B+ (grr ( Read more... )

I have pictured this Saturday a hundred million times. I have editted my speech nearly as many times. I have had my heart race nearly that many moments in life. I have dreamed of the what if's, the could be's, the possibilities ( Read more... )

So here I stand in front of the world, podium getting ready. Next Saturday is the do or die day. How will it go? I dunno. I pictured the day a million times. I'll picture it a million times more. I wish I knew how it was at the end. But I don't. My speech is done. Everything else is getting done. I didn't campaign like I wanted to, or at ( Read more... )

Yep routine sinking in ( Read more... )

Man, I gotta do Installing Officer this Sunday at Manteca. I put together and installing team, I am learning IO since John N. is no where to be found, and I am taxed out on brain power. I don't know what gave Stern the idea to have me be the beared of this but he gave it to me and I can't even get a hold of him either. I can't even get a hold of ( Read more... )

From the inside out ( Read more... )