I'm not sure where to start. I keep having a Stabbing Westward song playing in my head: "Everything I touch, I break." I'm not sure what the status of my relationship is. After much talking and crying this weekend with my boyfriend (and punching a concrete floor), it came to the end that I left early because he's not sure whether we should be ( Read more... )

So, finally the time has come that I love so dearly: finals week. I would like to express the panicky, wanna-go-vomit-y feelings this gives me. I hate it. Normally, I don't mind, but because my mom seems to care more than me, she gives me panic attacks over my finals, expressing for me in words (and in lecture form, nonetheless) the worries I ( Read more... )

I have been told by a few people that I should update. I'm sorry; I'm lazy. That is why I have not been updating. Life is ok. I just recovered last week from a horrible virus (I went to the ER and got IVs twice). I am feeling much much better. My birthday recently passed also (November 26). I was still sickly and my boyfriend Chris came to ( Read more... )

Laur Laur, this is for you ( Read more... )

Too Late for the Net

I count down the minutes
carving Talley marks in my skin
as the clock hand moves.
But when we’re together
the minutes flutter away
like doves released from
their cage
at a magic show.
We are the magician,
standing in awe
as they escape,
and know it’s too late
to go get the net.

So I haven't updated in like...a long time...So, stuff has happened. Yes, much stuff. Stuff like, moving into my dorm room and starting Fall semester 2005. My room looks awesome and very, very homey. My roomie and I are coexisting nicely, which is no surprise because we picked each other. My classes this semester and my opinions of them ( Read more... )

Once upon a time,
I thought someone loved me.
He whispered sweet phrases
in my ear as the breeze
ruffled my hair.
I was wrong.
Once upon a time,
I thought I loved someone.
I promised my heart
and gave him every
piece of me.
I was wrong.
Once upon a time,
I gave up on love.

Ok, so I got my hair dyed. It's dark brown with red tips and a red streak in front. Not as bright a red as I anticipated, but still pretty. I am getting glasses for driving, but I am planning on wearing them all the time because they're adorable. I just got back from vacation which was nice. Semi-relaxing (I never actually relax, after all). ( Read more... )

Homophobia and You (reposted from just about everybody ( Read more... )

So, someone has pointed out to me that I really do not update my livejournal often. I disagreed, and so in an attempt to prove them wrong, here is an update! I'm at work, doing work-ish stuff. Except for now when I'm taking a small break to type this. I handmade myself a dice bag for DnD and bought 4 sets of pretty, pretty dice (I feel sooo ( Read more... )