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Lazy Day
I couldn't sleep last night. Thoughts were running through my head like mad. They just wouldn't stop. I kept thinking about school and presentations and content, what I'm going to say and how I'm going to say it. 4 hours ( Read more... ) -
Pain
I'm in quite a bit of pain right now. Not as much as earlier this evening. Probably because I'm not walking around. My lower back is killing me and it hurts when I walk. I was limping the whole time at work today. Nobody gave a fuck. I thought I'd get over it but it kept getting worse. It didn't help that people were wearing me down and telling me ( Read more... ) -
Crying
Lately I've been feeling extremely sad. I should be happy but I'm not. I finally am doing lab work which I'm so excited about. It may only be scoring and entering data, but when I'm doing it, I feel so worthwhile. Like I'm contributing to something important and that the world needs me. I've told my parents and they don't seem to care. I think it's ( Read more... ) -
Sleep
Falling asleep should be one of the easiest things to do, but for me it's something that I never look forward to. I don't hate sleep, obviously. I hate trying to fall asleep. I usually can't do it on my own unless I've had a big day where I've been out being active. I know a million strategies how to get myself into the groove of going to bed ( Read more... ) -
Pretentious Profs
I'm honestly baffled as to how professors get their textbooks published, even though they're completely useless. I don't have the time or energy to read through 500 pages of verbosity and incoherent sentences. What happened to keeping it simple? Why do I always get knocked for being too wordy and unclear in my writing but when I try to read what my ( Read more... ) -
Still sick
The skin around my nostrils is dry and flaky from blowing my nose so much. I hate being sick! I couldn't study for most of the day because I was too ill. Sneezing, watery eyes, scratchy throat, stuffy head. I hate this! I'm so glad that the stuff I have to study is fairly easy and that it's stuff I already know from before. I just hope that I don't ( Read more... ) -
ignored
I can't decide whether I like being ignored or not. I feel that I want attention from others but, once I have that attention I don't know what to do with it. I become awkward, dorky and annoying. I hear the door open and wonder if she'll come in. Maybe if I wasn't sick she would. If she doesn't want to be around me that's ok with me ( Read more... ) -
woozy
I just took a zopiclone and am all over the place. i cant even type properly. i love this stuff. i really should get to bed. i gotta wake up tomorrow to get to the lab and make myself useful for once ( Read more... ) -
Hot Body
I've always appreciated and have been attracted to guys with nice, hard bodies. My early high school crush had a smokin' body with the nicest ass I've ever seen in my life. Hugging him and being next to him were the highlights of my day and would ache for more. And he smelled amazing, like clean laundry and guy's deodorant ( Read more... ) -
Body troubles
I just got home from work a while ago and what a disaster it was. It was a barmitzpha and the mother hadn't prepared anything. The coordinator was flipping out because the mother hadn't done the place cards so she asked me to do it. I was glad to help, as long as I wasn't in the hall doing boring, dizzying work. Serving was horrible, everyone was ( Read more... )