Well then. Im in such a good mood as of right now. Im not sure why but i just feel so happy. I dont wanna go out, i don't really want to do anything. I just want to sit here and be as happy as i can for as long as i can. I just feel so amazing and happy and i dont want to share it with anyone. I know im being a bit selfish but being abandoned by my ( Read more... )

I'm giving up on everything
Because you messed me up
Don't know how much you
Screwed it up
You never listened
That's just too bad
Because I'm moving on
I won't forget
You were the one that was wrong
I know I need to step up and be strong
Don't patronize me

Have you forgotten
Everything that I wanted
Do you forget it now
You never got It
Do you get it now

Gotta ( Read more... )

I caught myself crying.
Left behind.
I wish i was where they are.
its so perfect.
Everyone's so happpy.
and im left to live with another family.
I dont want to.
im fine at home.
I wish i could be there..

Well yesterday was interesting. Tried to go the movies with pat, joce and katrina. We took pats "shortcut" and ended up like...getting lost (did i mention it was raining! :O . So at around 930 we gave up and walked to 5 cornors. We took a taxi back to my place. and hung out here all night. Around 1ish me and pat walked joce and katrina home. And ( Read more... )

Just got back from fosters cottage.
that was so awesomely fun.
But now im stuck with a sore ankle,
and a million mosquito bites.
RAH.
Horrid.
<3 Nessa.

Im bored. I just got home from the grocery store. :) i went grocery shopping with my dad. Wow. What a fun way to spend my day! lol. Before that I was at Sams, i spent the morning sitting around whilst she argued with her mom ): so we didnt really get to talk or anything. But wasn't anything really to talk about. Its kind of pathetic that now that ( Read more... )

Well its Thursday. The weeks almost done. I haven't done anything today. At all. I wish everyone would just come home so I could have something to do. lol. My life is so reliant on my friends.. but anyways I haven't got much to say...except for that im happy :) later dudes.
                                                <3 <3 nessa.

all these depressing thoughts float through my head.
whats the point of it all.
needing.
wanting.
wishing.
It all seems so pointless as of now.
I was crying.
dreaming of days to come.
Afriad to sleep.
What if i dont wake up?
I spend endless nights sitting up at my computer.
I am afriad of being alone.
I am afraid i could die, and you wouldn't know how i truly ( Read more... )

Today has been weird. My mom got a phonecall saying my nan only had a few hours left to live ):  so she was really depressed all day. We tried to get her mind off of it for awhile so her,me, and a few of my neighbours went to the mall. I bought the movie Stigmata...uber creepy. I saw kenny at the mall...and thats about it. Now im at home, and im s' ( Read more... )

                      heres my night in a nutshell
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