Sleep, how I used to take it for granted...second morning in a row (on my days off mind you) where I just wake up and can't go back to sleep. The other day I missed work because of a lack of sleep; I felt ill and terrible, all because I hadn't slept. I take Melatonin to help me sleep when I come off of my night shift since the sun is shining and it ( Read more... )

So it's the start of a new year, not doing so hot with the New Years resolutions, but I think I set the bar too high and the things are just not achievable so early on.
Life is really good. My job is going really well, I am now UA(Universal Agent) trained which not only gives me the opportunity to work with Vancity members but now as well with ( Read more... )

Sorry I neglected you haha, I'm terrible, I know ( Read more... )

I asked for routine, and now I have one, at least I sort of do...I am helping Michelle with the kids for the next 2 weeks because the daycare lady is on vacation. And today I don't even have to take them because I have to go to work, hence why I am up at this hour. I had my interview with Citizen's Bank yesterday and it went really well(the ( Read more... )

....through every emotion, there is determination but I want to give up. When is something going to work out for once?

An important person in my life has hurt me badly, and maybe I deserve that kick in the ass because I hurt them before, but I never intended to hurt, a decision had to be made, and here's a question, did I make a mistake or did I ( Read more... )

Coffee: well it's my job...at least a major part of it. And since I get it free, I drink maybe a little too much. Strangely enough, some days it seems to not phase me, and then today I was so very hyper, go figure ( Read more... )

It feels like a good time to beat my head against the wall and scream...will that knock some sense into me? The feelings I feel, well they feel irrational and silly...and pointless. Yet I feel them, and that's not a crime...yet I go back to those vicious why and what if questions that like to plague me. In regards to everything in my life, I just ( Read more... )

For those who want an update, I'll give you what I got, which isn't much. I am in the process of finding a job and a place to live in or near Vancouver. I hope to be moved by May, and in a year or so, I'd like to start school of some sort, unless I have a really good job that I can turn into a career(if I get the job at the bank, I might stick with ( Read more... )

I always feel weird starting a journal entry, like should I start out Dear Diary,?? lol, anyways...I went to school with Michelle again the other day, one of her students was overly delighted to see me and came running at me to give me a hug. I got to have one of the yummy cheese scones...mmmmm!!! I decided later that day that I should try some ( Read more... )

Am I just crazy, or is it possible to forget what it is like to be in a relationship, especially the beginning of one. I mean, I remember, but it's so different, and yet so exciting and fun. This is the courtship part, the stuff you hope to never lose and you shouldn't have to lose it. The holding hands, staring into each others eyes, etc... Taking ( Read more... )