I have fouund a new home in Prescott. Yes I never spend any time at home ...how sad. I spend all my time at caitlyns becuase I can. I'm happy today, I was happy yesterday, I think that this week is a happy week thank god. I'm so tired of the mundane greyness of unhappiness, I really hate having to drag my-self out of bed all the while convincing my ( Read more... )

I feel utterly lost and alone. I am pushing everyone away that loves me for what reason....I feel empty and I am coming to that place where life seems utterly pointless and I struggle to allow my-self to live. It is a battle between what I know is right and what I want to believe is right. I know that tonight i will most likely not sleep and during ( Read more... )

I didn't hit my knee but that doesn't mean I'm notin pain. MY stomache for one is killing me so is that little voice inside my head. I knew I shouldn't have gone, I am much smarter then that, so much fucking smarter! I knew what I was putting on the line by getting drunk and I thought i wouldn't, well after some drinking i stoped and I thought I ( Read more... )

Nothing in this world but you complete me ( Read more... )

Today is such a lazy day and all I can say is that it's lovely, I have no job, no responsiblities. I woke up went for a walk got back in bed had some lucid dreams then I got a phone call so I talked while I ate ice cream for "breakfast" even thought by this time it was 1 am and hey I wish I was making money but I think that mabey it's good i don't ( Read more... )

I am happy and I am sad. devestated and angry all at the same time. Now I think mabey the first time this happened it should have just stayed that way. I am happy that we finally came to a decision where we don't have to leave each other behind romatically, but mabey we should. I am angry becuase at first when I was upset a long time ago I felt ( Read more... )

So this morning i woke up and decided to take everyone else's approach to everything. I deciced today I'll be happy. Fuck it sounded like a good fucking idea but it just made me realize that I care all to much about what others think and then again why shouldn't I? I mean if I look at my-self and compare my-self to no one but me it's pretty much ( Read more... )

I am to weak to be this strong ( Read more... )

Yes when to an interview today where sevral people made hopeless fools of themselfs it was almost so sad to watch. Katie N. was there it was kinda cool to see someone else that I knew, anyhow I kicked ass and I have another one-on-one interview on monday, I need a job, this would really be the best thing for me since i get my drivers licence soon ( Read more... )

OK mike I will call you back.....someday... I kinda like not having anything to do!!! I think that I have slowly become addicted to this computer I was up till 3 last night on the internet well, I mean I didn't get home till 10 but still what do I have to do till 3? NOTHING. Yeah I also play on-line checkers and I am horrible I don't think I have ( Read more... )