i fly out of south africa tonight. i don't want to go ( Read more... )

only with him can i be told everything you could possibly want to hear and everything you don't want to hear in the same conversation ( Read more... )

the last 3 days have been some of the most difficult i've experienced. i have rarely felt more stressed, scared and anxious. many times i've wanted to be anywhere else but here ( Read more... )

is more than i'd hoped for, more than i could have imagined. it can be hard to take it all in, but i'm doing everything i can to do just that. my soul has found some places of peace here and that was much much needed.

i'm booked for south africa. and i'll be going via amsterdam. pretty exciting.

but still overwhelming. i love all this traveling. yet i still get scared.

every time i click "confirm" on another booking page, i get a rush of excitement and huge nervousness.

but it will be great.

it will.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8ZuX5tXHwfk

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NQhJVIAAdh0

http://www.voteforenvironment.ca/

today was exactly what i needed. somehow. i didn't know what i needed. but this was it ( Read more... )

i'm here. back at sea ( Read more... )

i don't like this. not feeling well. and it makes me stressed.

which i know only makes me feel worse.

and thus, i find myself in another cycle. and one i don't want.