the grass is always greener on the other side?
no.
the grass always appears to be greener on the other side.

i wonder if i'll ever be happy .

one song.
brings me back
to that spot.
i close my eyes
and listen
as the song plays
i'm back.
i'm on that bench
skateboard to my left
as my feet play with it
colleen sits to my right
as she ponders her own thoughts.
my left over sandwich
lies in ruins
with the crumbs
seeping from the paper
my navy blue vans
snug tight to my feet
i feel the santa cruz sun
project its ( Read more... )

meow.

new faces

new goals

new places

new souls

-keep a smile on your face and fake to the world that all is fine
but who am i to be angry that no one knows what hides behind
all of this? i never let it show. its no ones fault but mine.
the pastor said that Jesus wants us to bring out our
secrets and sadness and bring them to the light.
he says its the only ( Read more... )

i'm sorry mother,
but i can not seem to shake this off
here i sit
in this dark room
a room which reminds me
of how lonely, i really am.
i listened to your advice
and took it all in
but somehow
i can not shake this off

"Monster"

it's a monster
that creeps during the winter
its a black shadow
that swallows me whole.

its an itch
that i can not scratch
a ride
that i ( Read more... )

i told another lie today.
"i don't feel well
i ate before i came "

for
a
moment
i
was
happy