push and pull
stretch and release
fuck this life
i want my money back

I'm running.
I see oppurtunity and I run the other way.
cannot see cannot feel cannot know
I'm standing still.
I stand here and look all around me as I watch everything fall apart.
cannot love cannot hate cannot explain cannot justify
I saw you there and you were on your knees
what I would give to see you there againcannot breathe cannot sleep ( Read more... )

There is snow outside... no... that is an understatement... There is a lot of snow outside... nope still doesn't work... hmm.. ah! my car is half burried in snow. eh... maybe that helps ( Read more... )

I've been fighting this headache for almost three days now. Its persistence is quite agitating. The medication I have has done nothing but dull the scream. I need insurance... and I need it soon ( Read more... )

Why is beauty so important to people? Why is it so difficult for people to see past the surface.

--"My teacher said that beauty comes from the inside"
=="Son, that's just something ugly people say."

I have so much to give. It's built up so much... I don't feel there will ever be a release...

Genetic reject.

I wish I could inhabit another body

I can see everything around me changing. I see the veil of the past pulling back from my eyes and the blinding light of the present penetrating through the crack. I see what I didn't want to ever believe and I'm taken back. Everything has changed. It's difficult for me to accept this and move on. Moving on I am, but accepting it is another story. I ( Read more... )

I broke again today. Any sign of change seems less likely after this moment ( Read more... )

Walk with me. I want to show you something ( Read more... )

So I think that's about it. I've decided to see a councilor. It's free through my work and I need to do something. I can't keep doing this...

I'm finding myself jumping at shadows today. Perhaps this is due to all of the messed up dreams I've been having lately. I swear I could put together a killer horror movie ( Read more... )