enter:: emotional overload

exit::

--Too much.
--Not enough.

beyond desensitization
beyond words...

I'm falling again... this time I think it's going to hurt.

exit::
exit::
exit:: this shell once again

Consumed by a memory untouched from inside ( Read more... )

It's intriguing how much people take for granted. How often do you talk to someone and think that it may be the last time? How often do you call that person instead of putting it off until the next day knowing that they might not have a next day? How often do you smile and greet the people you care about? How much do you show them you appreciate ( Read more... )

Isn't it ironic that election day falls on the same day as The Day of the Dead? I found that oddly amusing considering the turnout to this years election. Good job America. What the hell were you thinking?

Well, it's Halloween and the house is hosting a party... or so I thought. There is no one here and it looks like it's going to stay that way. They only bought enough candy to pass out for about twenty minutes and now all there is to do is sit here. hmm... and I was looking forward to this day for weeks ( Read more... )

I want to believe that this is a learning experience. I want to believe that after this is all finally over I will be stronger. I want to believe that this will be over soon. Perhaps these desires are the only things motivating me to press on, to continue breathing ( Read more... )

then my head fell apart and where were you?
how could I ever think
it's funny how everything you swore would never change
is different now
like you said
you and me
make it through
didn't quite
fell apart
where the fuck are were you?

.. but I cannot hold that against you

I want to be held.
I want to be kissed.
I want everything I cannot have.

Just the way she moved. The way she swayed... My reason was paralyzed for those brief moments... I was nothing, but the moment was everything
Then there she was. The tragedy fulfilled. Beauty no more. Lying there on the bathroom floor...
I don't have enough emotional capacity for this... I think I need to scream...

I bought a pack of cigarettes today ( Read more... )

What can I say of such things? My motivation for this life has dropped near zero and now I’m sitting here wondering what the fuck I’m going to do now. I thought of withdrawing some money to buy a gun and blow my head off, but such a thing would be cowardly and pointless. I don’t want to die; I just want a release from all of this. I’m so fucking ( Read more... )