why does shit always end up like this. am i to messed up to warrant a decent relationship in my life for once.

so i think i'm seriously falling for someone. it sucks though cause i don't know if she feels the same way for me. i hate the not knowing but i think the knowing that she doesn't would be worse....uhhhhh. well hopefully thinks will work out in the end.

so i went to the weezer concert on friday with this amazing girl that i have a huge secret crush on....i know i know...anyway it was such an awesome night...but i still managed to mess it all up and not get her phone number or ask her if she wanted to hang out sometime again. looking back i had so many times i could have. i don't want to press to ( Read more... )

so i totally just won weezer tickets and an mp3 player from a contest on the radio!!!!! finally something good happened to me.

i can't figure all this out...so many choices with pros and cons. do i stay in cali to go to college or go back to ohio. should i start in premed right now while still in the navy which will be hard or just take random prereq courses and once i get out go full force into college...i'll be 30ish when i get out if i start then 5 years of regular ( Read more... )

so i've become extremly bored with fixing computers all day and i stopped to think about it, i only got into this field because i was good at it...i fucking hate it it's so goddamned boring. almost everything i do anymore i can do without putting much thought into it, so i think maybe it's time to pick a new career path and go back to college....

i'm so fed up with work and being jerked around. i'm supposed to be getting help but they are making my work life miserable....i'm starting to really miss hawaii.

so i endured yet another boring weekend of shutting myself off from all outside interaction...wish i could just control of myself and be able to live.

kXm

so yeah shit had gotten really bad for a while there. mulitple hospital trips and the such but i'm starting to finally get a handle on things. don't suppose anyone still reads my journal but just thought i'd throw it out there.

kXm

i'm sorry for being the way that i could never help, and after all isn't this just the most fitting end for someone like me. to end it all alone and in vain. just believe in tomorrow, and how the sun won't shine. i can't believe that tomorrow will bring everything around. i find myself just sitting here alone as always and hating everything giving ( Read more... )