There is so much wrong with me. I need to realize that I have limits. The limits are not the problem, everyone has limits. The problem is that I can't accept them. I can't accept not having something even when i know I can't have it. So many times I see that I need to let something go or just deal with it, but I can't. I'm not happy unless things ( Read more... )

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well, I'm not so happy. Actually I'm very upset. My recital was not so great and even though I got through it I am not proud of my self. I should have worked harder so that something like that wouln't happen, and I didn't. I'm being so lazy about all of this, and in performance there's no room for shortcuts or taking it easy. If there's one good ( Read more... )

Stop it. Stop, stop, stop. I can't handle this anymore. I'm getting along with everyone and you'd think that would make everything fine, but it doesn't. It's impossible for me to be happy when everyone around me is always fighting! Every time this happens my day is ruined and I feel like i'm going to be sick. I just want everyone to be happy.

but seriously...I'm getting so sick of all of this "you don't think for yourself" bullshit. (yes I know that was the subject of my last entry too)...I listened to everyone when they first said something to me. It's important to me that my friends are having a problem with me, but it's not so easy to take them seriously when my opinion of food can ( Read more... )

I was really proud of myself for a minute there. It seemed like no one was mad at me but that is never true. Someone I care about will always dislike the way I'm treating them or expect more attention, and it makes me feel like such a shitty person knowing that someone is always upset with me. I shouldn't have to feel like crap all the time just ( Read more... )

Take five books off your bookshelf ( Read more... )

This whole weekend was really sucky as it was happening. I don't enjoy hearing what I bad friend I am or how I can't think for myself, but now I'm glad that it happened. I can think for myself, and my opinions still stand, but the bad friend part is not so far from the truth. When I feel that things are slipping away, I shouldn't just let go and ( Read more... )

X MEANS YES ( Read more... )