My mind races, i want to let go, yet i hang on. i want to scream at the top of my lungs yet, i stay mute. I want to feel joy and happieness yet i feel pain and sorrow. this is self inflicked. i say i have no control, but that is a lie. How long does this go on for. how long do i torture myself. i have to stand up and walk away. with my head up ( Read more... )

He says he is leaving ( Read more... )

I took the stitches out of her head. she did very good. held still but cried most of the time. she is a trooper.

My baby Girl got her first set of stitches on saturday. she did so good. She was so brave. and of course she was just adorable

I miss my mom so much ( Read more... )

being 2 must be really hard, talk about emotional.... it's like a really really fast roller coaster. up and down in seconds. and to think someday she will look back on other 2 year olds and think " life was so hard then. knowing that it wasn't hard at all. but being in the brain of a 2 year old must be scary.. not really knowing, being totally ( Read more... )

Please someone just pee on me. i love nothing more than to sit here and be pissed on by others. how is it that we/I let others and thier actions bother me so much. i try to breath through it and rationalize things but it doesn't work. (maybe for a day) but that is it.