Wow so I'm so lost I've had hookups but he was different I even contemplated a lot lol but it's over now n I'm alone again Angie's locked up n ray doesn't seem to like me but I know he loves me I'm nOt happyim not sure what it is I even want w my life just roll over n die

So I haven't written in at least four years , I just randomly remembered this site ... so a lot has changed I'm having alot of fun working n going to school... rays amazing...

i cant find a job wtf?? the economy is so fucked i cant get any money or is there just something wrong with me? i think so... i can tget a liscence either at least pass the test wth?? i suck but ill never give up hope

what the fuck is wrong with me? i have no idea but i do know one thing if i died today i would want everyone to remember me i dont wanna be forgotten i hope that in the future when my time does come ill be remembered not as a slut or a bitch or whatever else has been said about me i hate the fact that i feel stupid i feel ignored and im a drama ( Read more... )

last week i failed two history tests my locker was brokei had a crappy locker in pe ( Read more... )

i just ate at the crab house it was okay i had fish and chips newayz i just called ray to tell him i miss him and he started why r u calling me? you know i cant use my moms minutes blah blah blah im going to get in trouble newayz i hung up on him its ing bull how he is he could had been like baby i miss you too but i cant use my moms mins ill ( Read more... )

i just ate at the crab house it was okay i had fish and chips newayz i just called ray to tell him i miss him and he started why r u calling me? you know i cant use my moms minutes blah blah blah im going to get in trouble newayz i hung up on him its ing bull how he is he could had been like baby i miss you too but i cant use my moms mins ill ( Read more... )

my dad woke me up were going to drive for 57 minutes to go to daytona beach im in my armor cute skirt with my burberry bathingsuit and my favorite flipflops!!!!! i havent been to daytona beach since i was like 5 or so i hope its fun im so looking for some kick ass clothing shops scoreeeeeeeeeee shopping hopefully!! i didnt go to sleep till like 1: ( Read more... )

how do you live life when your in love? its like not possible ur a nerveous wreak with out him how do you live life like that one minute your happy without a care in the world then the next your crying and freaking out because you didnt get to say good bye i hate this shit ive never been so fucking depressed i dont know how to even think for myself ( Read more... )

i met this really cutye guy named jeff yummmmmy hes a jugalo and hes adorable n shit he kissed me n shit but i was like dragged up the stairs to do it im a little bit sad cuz hes not really looking for a relationship which is okay but ihe replaces eli thoughts thats how fucking hot he is i would fucking die if i went out w/him hes the hotteset 16 ( Read more... )