I really can't find anything else to do. I'm so anxious I can't just sit still. I feel like I'm going to cry, and I probably am. I hurt. I really don't know why. Maybe I feel left out, or maybe disappointed. I don't know anymore. I do know that I am confused about what the hell is going on, especially with one person. Right now all I want is to at ( Read more... )

I almost wish I kept using this thing because a whole hell of a lot has changed. I think it would have been nice to document it. But even attempting it half-assedly now would take way too long ( Read more... )

Will I be able to breathe tonight? Will I wish I was dead rather than missing the things I will miss? Will I keep doubting that the decision made was right? What am I going to do? What are you going to do? I don't want to feel anymore pain, but I'm afraid either way I'll be in it. One way I'll eventually get over it. The other won't feel as bad ( Read more... )

I think everyone has forgotten about you my friend.

If theres anyone out there that cares about anything I may have in here and can't read it, all you have to do is ask.

All I have to occupy me on days like this are my memories

stop trying

so i feel like shit now. i feel sick, and something that i was afraid of was confirmed...but its probly for the best anyways...and its not like it hasnt happened before. eventually ill get over...or not because i didnt before, but ill live ( Read more... )

ok, so im fickin drunk right noe, and im not gonna write about shit because i dont wanna get depressed. FUVK THAT!!!!!!!!!

i give up on life...at least at the moment. im freezing, no one will talk to me for more than like two words, ive been home alone all day, im sick, i hurt, and no one is giving me love. and surprisingly im not freaking out, id rather just give up and lay down. lol.