i  don't want to love you anymore ( Read more... )

this is where the gods listen, i hope ( Read more... )

i don't think anyone reads this and that's ok. i just need to get it out ( Read more... )

i have no where else to write.

my heart is hurting and it's my own fault. i am trying to stay focused on the positive. trying to visualize you coming back to me. that's all i want. i want you back in my arms. sleeping peacefully next to me. not mad. not annoyed because we keep having the same conversation over and over because i've finally learned ( Read more... )

but in fairness, i really thought it was going to be the end for us. i am so glad it isn't though i do spend the bulk of my time with you torn between absolutely enjoying every moment, and also reminding myself to just enjoy it and not get so ahead of myself worrying about where this is going. it's so hard. the last 24 hours were absolutely ( Read more... )

i keep my hands pinned underneath my weight, i can't reach out and touch you now ( Read more... )

things to report, even though i am fairly certain no one is even on here anymore ( Read more... )

another night charmed away in a bar scene ( Read more... )

my friend is gone. my coworker, chip dunbar passed away sunday from a heart condition. he couldn't have been more than 50 something ( Read more... )

tired steps span the rain splattered concrete where the scent catches me with a quick embrace and suddenly i'm five again. back to when i first took notice of how the senses connect and realizing for once that i could understand why. realizing finally that the outside world could affect the pieces i kept tucked safely inside. somehow at that age, ( Read more... )