i just read one of my old blogs.

on a different site.

i'm disgusted with myself.
i was actually defending those stupid pro-ana sites
and their "tips 'n' tricks" and thinspo.
i posted thinspo!!
i do not remember ever doing this.
but i know it was all me.
because i remember the stuff i wrote about happening.
wtf.

 back on campus ( Read more... )

heading back down to campus tomorrow. 
to be back with my "family" 
and all my lovely friends.

thank god i have 4 days before i have to deal with the fucking campus cafeteria though.

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i fail at three meals a day

but ONLY because i didnt even get up unitl 1pm.

so there.
try again tomorrow, nbd.

 OK.

my goal for tomorrow is to Legitimately eat THREE meals
like a normal person should.

the deal was three meals a day, or something every two hours...
and i have failed thus far.
BUT TOMORROW.

i'm gonna doooo it.
and i'm not gonna purge any of these meals.

 usually, if i cook it i can eat it.
if i'm the one that makes it then it's fine.

tonight will be the same. 
i'm going to make it happen.

chicken parmesan, pasta, and zucchini.

 i need music suggestions so i can do some downloading before i go back to campus...

i KNOW you guys have suggestions. throw em at me.

i love how i thought i didnt have any weird ED food behaviors or anything
but apparently i was wrong.

i CAN do this.
it's NOT too much food.
it's a NORMAL amount of food.