from my last entry things changed & went back to hell, but it's going okay now. could be better, but could be worse. i'm not complaining, just wanting to get my life straight. i start my GED classes in two weeks :) i'll go tuesday's & thursday's for two weeks & then take the test. i believe i'll do good actually, i just gotta put my mind to it. ( Read more... )

im gonna try & write as much as possible as quickly as possible w/o having 2 write a book. things hit rock bottom & i finally lost my shit. everyone was right. drugs fkd me up 2 the point 2 where i lost my shit. i lost my mind. im not saying its bad 2 do drugs, but when u got emo probs espically really bad ones (like myself) then u just need 2b as ( Read more... )

things r krazee. im still jobless & pretty much have been a moocher off my mom & dad. good buddy of mine might be able to get me & sassy a job @ panasonic ... thatd kick ass. he said he'll find out sometime sunday or monday if he can get us the job. me & sas called tho & they said they werent hiring so hm |: we'll see. im about tired as hell right ( Read more... )

i'm sitting here with my heart pounding & with tears in my eyes. you say i love you but i dunno if thats true. so many people have fucked with my head that when you say something i can't understand. i mean by that, i understand what you're saying...but i dunno. i just need you to look @ me in the eyes & say Kris i love you. otherwise i'm left ( Read more... )

i had a beautiful, beautiful time. the drives and the talks were amazing, the kind of friend i thought i'd never find. i had a beautiful, beautiful time. you have a beautiful, beautiful smile ( Read more... )

.::.Well I know the words, but I can't really speak them...to you. And I hide all the pain, that I've gained with my wisdom, from you. And I'm eaten alive, by what I hold inside. All the things that I live, with I can't easily hide. And I'm left here with nothing, nothing to live for...but you. It's not easy to hide, all this damage inside. I'll ( Read more... )

chandler stayed over last nite & my mom was all cheery about it having that attitude like "oh yeh a man finally to turn my sweet little girl STRAIGHT" HA no can do. actually the more i hang-out w/ chan, the more gayer i become. no offense to him or anything it's just i have a straight guy friend now that i can actuallt hang-out w/ that doesn't bug ( Read more... )

.:yawns:. i'm tired. i actually woke up early today so i'm proud. jen didn't call me last night when she got off wurk so i hope she's okay /: i'm so lucky so have someone asamazing as her (: <3 last night me & dewey went to starbucks & then chilled @ my place. before that i hung-out with chandler & we went to east point which was tiring because i ( Read more... )

jenny's back from her camping trip so yay (: i woke up late as fuck today; almost @ 6pm 'cuz i didn't go to bed until really fuckin' late last night. when i woke up i hung-out with chandler for a little bit which we had fun bc we always do (: then i went to dewey's & we chilled for awhile. he gave me these pants he just bought & they're so pimp. he ( Read more... )

dewey & melissa (his sister) came over & woke me up @ 4:30pm so we could hang-out. me & dewey went to ATL & got starbucks & then went to jaycen's bc he's got an apartment there now. from there we went out to dinner with him his bf elliot some of their friends that were really cool. when we got back to jaycen's we played some game which was fun as ( Read more... )