Today passed over me slowly. I don't even know what I did really. I made a nice mellow c.d. to listen to while I walk to class. It's a nice blend of the shins, radiohead, red house painters, nico, and an array of other good smooth classics. I feel very calm and detatched while I walk to class. I don't know what it is, maybe it's the music or ( Read more... )

I'm not my body or how I chose to destroy it

I'm going home today.  I am so excited to be home even if it's just for a few days.  Today I realized that I need to go to new orleans soon.  I just need to.  That city will cure what ales ya.  It's true.  Just being there makes you feel at peace with yourself.  I don't know it's hard to explain.  Anyway I have two more classes then it's time to ( Read more... )

Sometimes I have these memories that hit me like a ton of bricks. I'll just be doing something and then all of the sudden I'll have this lapse like something I did, even something I did a long time ago, is happening all over again. I can get so caught up in a memory. I've had this strange feeling in my stomach lately. I feel like I can't eat ( Read more... )

Ice-age heat wave, can't complain ( Read more... )

I have been so tired today. So many thoughts run through my head that I can't keep up with them all. It's strange how detached you can feel sometimes; like nothing is real. We sat in the grass today for a long time. It was cool outside and in the shade the grass felt fresh underneath me, and it was comforting on some level. I slept last night ( Read more... )

I really hate myself sometimes. I hate tears and crying and all emotions that are sad. I want to be void of emotion. The irony of these weekends of fun is that they always end in coming back to a place that I don't consider home at all. I try so hard, but it seems like the harder I try the more tears that come falling down my cheeks one by one ( Read more... )

This weekend I went to Austin for Katy's birthday. It was so much fun. Unfortunately Evey couldn't come because she had too much homework. It felt so good to be there. When I got back today Evey wasn't in the room, so I figured I would go for a walk because the weather is really nice. I wound up in the field. I think that is my favorite place ( Read more... )

Today I applied for a freshman internship into the student government. I think it would look really good on my transcript. Other than that all I had today was english class in which we introduced ourselves, had a short discussion and then we were let out after a little over half an hour. The class was supposed to be an hour and a half. I guess ( Read more... )

do you believe in rock and roll can music come and save your soul?
I don't think so
because you're dancing too slow

oh yea you're dancing too slow