Sometimes I just want to leave. Go somewhere new, be someone else, do something else. I just wanna get in my car and drive far away where no one knows me and I don't have any shit to deal with. I don't have to worry if my life's going in the right direction, or if all the crap I do will be worth it in the end, or if I will end up where I want to be ( Read more... )

To all my adoring fans and readers (cuz i know theres just sooo many out there lol ( Read more... )

Ok, so you know I've gotta complain...if I didn't, what kind of live journal would this be? Lol. It's V-day tomorrow, and that sucks. Why does it suck? Cuz Paul's in NY and I can't see him (insert pouty face here). Yes yes, yay for me for me even having a bf as the single people would tell me, and i'll see him soon... But it still sucks. And I ( Read more... )

OK so today I was remembering people and things from my past, and it was a totally weird experience. Like when you look at stuff from like 3 years ago, when you were friends with or dating totally different people...it's so parallel universe. In the short time that I have lived, I've had different groups of friends, and completely different lives. ( Read more... )

So, today I went to a girl's house near South Beach to do a group project. She started talking about her life, and how she lived in Europe for a couple of years, etc. And I felt stupid. Like I haven't really lived. All I've experienced is Sunny Isles, and an ice cream store in South Beach (now as good as that is, it's not South Beach). I haven't ( Read more... )

OK. So resolutions are great, but they won't work unless you have a plan and discipline. Sometimes, I lack discipline so here's my way of doing both. Every time I have a negative thought about my life, woe is me, then instead of staying negative, I'm going to force myself to read. Anything. A book, a newspaper, something intelllectual. That way, I' ( Read more... )

LOL. O well. Don't really need one I guess. I don't think anyone reads this anyways. I guess I started this as a lazy way of posting all my negative thoughts and feelings, so my friends could read it all at once, instead of me having to repeat myself all the time. Yes, I'm pretty lazy. hehe. I guess it's time for some negative thoughts then: all my ( Read more... )

That's crazy. How did the year go by so fast? And not just the year, but the holidays. I feel like I completely missed Christmas. I know it happened, and I can recount what I did, but it wasn't the same feeling. I LOVE Christmas, and the holidays. It's a time for friends and family, and I love buying ppl presents (yes im weird, I actually like ( Read more... )

Lol. I was all positive, but you can't be positive all the time can you? I dunno. The inferior feelings are hard to shake. Like experiences are experiences right? Everyone has different experiences. Doesn't mean my life will be any less fulfilled... But like, I can't stand those looks of pity I get. Maybe I'm just interpreting them that way, but ( Read more... )

Hey! I already did number 6 on my list! (I cleaned my room- go me!) But yea, resolutions could work. I mean if you force urself to write them down and have them staring u in the face, u feel like u need to do it. maybe? I dunno. I saw Paycheck. That was interesting. One question I will leave u with....If you knew something wasn't going to work out ( Read more... )