I feel like everything I do is in vain, if it isn't for someone. Why is this embedded in my mind? Don't misunderstand. All of this sprial downward has nothing to do with Dean, it was only lit by him. I mean sure I miss him, but I don't think I would want him back. I am just frustrated with the way things are. How bored I am. How people can just ( Read more... )

The only thing, I can relate to is music. I cannot express how I feel, so I will chessily paste lyrics which relate to me so much. I guess they might not sound deep, but I mean if I think of how I feel this explains it to me. Deep or not they work. I guess you'd have to be in my mind set to understand. If only these lyrics were ontop of the dreamy ( Read more... )

I would like to get into photographer. I need some sort of escape. Or something. A new hobby. I think I waste a lot of time. And I don't want to ( Read more... )

This site has recorded the exact moment of when "The Falling of Robyn's Happiness" began. Literally. From the day I got fired from Music World, to Dean and my arguement, to our breaking up, to everything ( Read more... )

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It just occurred to me that last Wednesday (a week ago today) I went downtown as well ( Read more... )

I didn't want to go home tonight,
I didn't want to go anywhere.
Anywhere but August.
August was the best month of my life -
as of yet anyway.

Then again, I didn't want to stay anywhere.
Not there.
I didn't really care anymore.
There's really nothing I care about,
and only one thing I think about.


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You waits days for a couple hours, only for it to be tainted ( Read more... )

I am going to avoid putting in entries of the last couple of days due to lack of interest in my part. I will explain my unplesant revelations if I ever gather to engergy to face them in words. This doesn't mean I will stop writing, or checking other peoples journals. I just I don't know - I don't see reason or it. For now I leave you with brillant ( Read more... )

There is nothing I have to say really. I feel - well I guess it's indifferent.

That is all. I will write tomorrow.

godspeed,
.:New York Cares:.